sunshinesoul

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[–] [email protected] 2 points 2 months ago

it was a few hours before they announced it otherwise i would have thought it was for the pope 1000%

[–] [email protected] 2 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago)

i live in a very densely populated suburb and i don't believe i've heard any in previous years either so i honestly think it was just a conservative 'Murica Hell Yeah thing. or for 420. or honestly could be both

[–] [email protected] 3 points 2 months ago (4 children)

i’m not super familiar with services in the UK but i know that things like this aren’t an uncommon occurrence there. i hope that all of this becomes more manageable for you soon and that you’re eventually pain free. if you have the ability to do small exercises at home there’s a ton of online resources for ones that would benefit the achilles/whatever would work for you the most that might be helpful in between those physiotherapy appointments.

[–] [email protected] 9 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago)

one of the therapists i saw this year mentioned their faith to me in the middle of a session (without any indication of it on their website or any time before) in an attempt to provide comfort with something i was dealing with and i immediately noped out lol. it’s surprisingly hard to find a therapist in my area that’s not christian counseling or otherwise faith-based. only vaguely related, but i once came across a page for a therapist who was only accepting new clients with family in/ties to israel desolate

[–] [email protected] 6 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago)

from the general vibes/light conversations about events i’ve had with them, all the therapists ive had in the past generally skewed liberal at worst with social/political issues. definitely not on the hard left, but not “wahh-illegals-in-my-country” xenophobic fascist aligned either, so hearing something like this was a first for me. it shocked me that someone in that line of work could have such a lack of empathy for other human beings. i’m just glad i know about it now so i can see someone else and not waste my time.

[–] [email protected] 5 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) (1 children)

i see a psychiatrist for medication management once a month but i find more frequent talks with a therapist helpful too, but this definitely was a last-session convo and i don’t plan on going back to this therapist at all lol. thank you for the link to ndtherapists, i already went through the list for my area and plan on reaching out to someone new from there so hopefully it works out !! i agree with your sentiment about the paywalls. i am incredibly thankful to be on a “good” insurance right now that makes things manageable and accessible but i previously had issues with insurance in the past for non-psychiatric matters and it was kind of a nightmare.

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submitted 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) by [email protected] to c/[email protected]
 

im at a loss for words i dont understand anything anymore. it just got dark enough here so it was definitely a planned out thing. i hate fireworks on the “normal holidays” to have them but come on now

 

this might be more vent-ish and long winded than i intended it to be so i might eventually delete but i desperately need to get it off my chest somewhere and to people who might Get It ? ooooooooooooooh

general cw for topics of mental health and suicide (i’m not sure what else to tag specifically!)

i previously saw the same therapist for 2 years straight and i’ve been bouncing around different ones ever since. i’m on my fourth one since then and it’s probably been the worst experience i’ve had with a therapist yet.

i’m bipolar 2 with adhd, and our latest appointment was the last straw. i was hypomanic this time, but very low and suicidal in the last appointment, which prompted her to oh-so-kindly tell me “thank god you’re feeling better, if you were still suicidal i’m not sure i would be able to keep you as a client because its not something i can deal with.” this was a therapist who advertised herself as specializing in bipolar.

i absolutely should not have done this in hindsight but i couldn’t keep my mouth shut at the time because, well, hypomania and impulsivity and whatnot, but later on in the session i mentioned that i was worried about immigrants in the US and mass deportations and Evil and Doom and that a lot of my friends were scared too. my therapist replied with, word for word, “well, if you and your friends aren’t illegals there’s nothing to worry about right?” i was so dumbfounded i just did not answer for a good 10 seconds and then changed the subject. there was nothing to say. i felt genuinely sick afterwards. i guess it was on me for bringing it up to someone whose opinions i wasn’t familiar with, but when would anyone be familiar with their therapist’s political opinions ??? isn’t that an ethical boundary or something

TLDR needless to say i am once again looking for a new provider. i’ve tried pretty much every website for finding people in my area. i dont like online stuff/zoom meetings so that severely narrows my options. i guess i’d like to know what sort of questions i should be asking people? to narrow out the Weird and Offputting providers if there’s even a way to do that? i don’t know. im just tired bros. any input on how to make things not suck would be appreciated because im just so disillusioned with the whole Mental Health System at this point. thanks for reading this far. doggirl-gloom


[–] [email protected] 5 points 2 months ago* (last edited 2 months ago) (1 children)

i havent used any substance i have issues with since january! having a bit of a tough time in regards to mental health but i am proud of myself for not slipping back into old habits. trying to keep it up.

i think right now my goal is to consistently get outside more often. the weather is getting nicer so it’s a good excuse. i have chronic pain issues so it won’t be anything too crazy like a 10 mile hike but i went for two short walks in the past week and it was sort of meditative and calming in a way. lancer-bike

[–] [email protected] 4 points 2 months ago (1 children)

would like to be added to the roll call! ralsei-wave

[–] [email protected] 2 points 2 months ago (6 children)

i’m so sorry that all of this has been so hard on you. healing from this type of stuff is so excruciatingly slow and being trapped inside is absolutely a nightmare scenario. i hope that, at least, the time at home has been beneficial to your healing process with the surgery. taking care of yourself right now is the highest priority.

if you haven’t tried already and if you have the means and funds to do so, a physical therapy program might be able to help you build strength/alleviate pain. if it’s too much for right now its definitely something to consider in the future. if you’re unable to drive or walk to public transport and if you live in the US, i know that it isn’t too uncommon for PT places to arrange transport to/from the program for you using insurance or medicaid if you have it (i would see this at the one i went to but didn’t need it myself so i unfortunately don’t have personal experience in trying to arrange it all.)

[–] [email protected] 5 points 2 months ago (8 children)

chronic achilles injuries are so awful — my right one is severely fucked beyond belief and i’m in the beginning stages of issues with my left (probably from like 10 years of uneven weight distribution falling on my left leg all the time.) i feel like it’s something super overlooked/seldom spoken about in the greater spectrum of mobility issues and i never hear other people talking about it. it sucks and you aren’t alone. please try to hang in there.

[–] [email protected] 10 points 6 months ago

sableye is literally me i love to eat rocks and skitter around in dark caves

[–] [email protected] 17 points 6 months ago

agreed i tried it once and it was not that good or worth it at all. i could make better salads at home for probably 1/3 the cost. i guess convenience is what draws people to it?

 

i dont have much else to add to this post im just genuinely interested because i haven't heard a single person talk about degrassi in at least 15 years (aside from the occasional "remember that show drake was in lol") what drew you to start/continue watching? where should a new watcher start?

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