The slow road to being your best self takes a different path. If I had an answer to your question I wouldn't need to transition.
lazyneet
Depression gang here. I'm in therapy. Does it help? I don't know, but I'm also a full-time student, which at least distracts. I'm dating a guy who has my level of depression but lacks my sex drive and middle-class background, and I've had meaningful long-distance relationships as well, so I understand what you're experiencing. The trouble is that depression has many causes, and if it's chronic then you can get triggered by something and your whole day is ruined at the very least, and sometimes these spells last for months. There is no easy cure, but if he'll listen you can give him basic advice on finding help.
Yesterday my on-and-off partner got mad at me for eating oatmeal because he didn't like the sound of the spoon in the bowl. I think he was deflecting from other issues. In the morning he acted like everything's fine and he even gave me a quickie before we left. Now I can't call him to tell him what's up on my end because he forgot his phone was on silent FOR A WEEK NOW. I pity people who need weed to calm down because it can really fuck with your personality imho.
Nonbinary?