In my case there is no "first thrust" as it takes a minute to loosen a little. I would characterize it as a mild sharp pain for the first 30 seconds, followed by what feels like an internal massage. If you've never done anal it can feel a bit different (worse) but a lot of the experience is psychological.
lazyneet
joined 1 year ago
I'm sorry for all of these things you feel, some of which I too feel. Maybe you could try counseling (again, assuming that was part of your process for getting HRT). I started HRT about a year ago at 31 and I was socially transitioning for 6 months before that. I don't trouble myself with the metaphysical, but I definitely relate to gender dysphoria and depression.
Regarding trans acceptance, I think the congresswoman's views are maybe a bit too moderate, and civil rights are things to fight for when 1/3 of the country possibly hates us. It took over 100 years after emancipation for African-Americans to gain acceptance without segregation. In the country's history, we have never had a woman in the White House, except for Harris's vice-presidency. Equality takes a strong effort against the current of neo-Nazism and other brands of hatred, and I hope the many decades of trans history (when trans people have been known as such) mean enough to people that a basic level of public acceptance without open hatred can be found in the places we live.
I run koboldcpp on a gaming pc. Currently using a 7b Dolphin model and personas that force it to either be more compliant or roleplay a character. It irks me that even the uncensored models tend to be aligned to be polite, since they are often derived from pre-trained corporate models. I've never had an AI threaten to choke me if I don't be a good little slut, for instance.
With current partner, wildest =/= best. Wildest would have been 3-ways with them and my previous partner. The best was probably the sex current partner and I had when I was way out of my comfort zone, which is normally that of a kinky poly bottom.
I've been boymoding with them ever since they said they needed a bf. (We're both mtf.) One day we were playing a tabletop game with friends for 4 hours, and I was bored and feeling up my partner a bit the whole time. In the car after, they told me they aren't comfortable with much pda. I apologized. We got back to my place and I invited them in. It was a particularly hot day with no ac, and we stripped in about 10 seconds. I don't remember the first few positions, but they were calling me "daddy" and acting extremely subby. They gave me the best blowjob of my life and I came more than I thought it was possible for a tgirl to cum. I lay there in shock for 10 minutes as they licked up the mess they made. Then I tried topping and failed miserably, but the first part was awesome.
I'll have that this evening. I'll probably ask them to be a good girl and masturbate in front of me while I get hard, then suck daddy's dick. Depending on how I'm feeling, I might top them face-down. I've never cum while penetrating someone (I'm secretly not a top but I don't have the heart to tell my partner, that's what therapy is for) but maybe tonight it happens.
That sucks. I'm on my way to getting counseling for some of what I feel. I'm using non-binary gender identity as a way to bridge to where I'm going, but a lot of American institutions under the dictator are forced into black-and-white logics. I can only reassure you that hairy arms are normal for most adults, including my mother. It isn't hard to shave them, though I recommend hair removal cream around the wrist bones to avoid cuts.
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I've gotten a lot of "talk to you tomorrow" then the next day the convo doesn't exist. I'm guessing it's either bots or humans with unreal short attention spans. The Grindr Turing test requires a face pic in the profile and evidence of a personality.