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Might I humbly suggest these as euphemisms for when you get caught by the feds and have your lawyer giving a shout out to "the citations needed podcast support network" so we can all pat ourselves on the back and donate to your legal fund?

According to one of those SOF youtubers who recently did a video telling his audience not to hold SOF influencers up as heros, or hope your children grow up to become like them- he described the selection process as finding people on the sociopathic/narcissistic spectrum who are basically capable of doing fucked up shit, not feeling bad and being able to compartmentalise or rationalise that behavior effectively enough to not be too dangerous when re-integrated into society.

Q and most conspiracy stuff really hooks people on that spectrum too, I think, being in the know, being better than the sheeple masses etc. Add in an incentive to feel like all the time you spent learning how to be an efficient murderer is useful "just in case" etc. I can see why it attracts them.

I have a friend who has flip flopped all over the ideological spectrum over the years. They are over their most chuddy shit now and despite being a south asian trans girl, most of their friendship circle are ex-SOF. "They're good guys." etc. That friend has never been mentally stable and was deep in the Q hole for a while so I imagine that's why she so easily bonds with the boys from the 101st drag you out of bed brigade (or whatever.)

Because a lot of the most violent sociopathic war criminals from that war also ran drugs? Just a wild guess. But nothing in what I said is false.

Ironically something similar to this is in a CIA doc somewhere. I want to say Project Blue Beam but it's been ages and I get my wires crossed- basically a plan to use clouds as a holographic projection medium targeted at the psychic vulns of various populations- aliens for some, angels for others etc. I don't remember many of the details because like most CIA bullshit it's just silly.

Exploding cigar, anyone?

"useless crayon colored ahh"

Yeah they're heavy fuckers.

Very interesting. Thank you.

Yeah I just guess I'm "a socialist" but in practice I'm just your friendly neighbourhood juggalo ready to get down and I'd rather not implicate anyone else in anything I might do so anarchism is probably the closest sort of "historical" ideology that describes my shit. Also I read Goldman and recognise that every system has its failings. My faith is in that after the final revolution, final-form communism will ultimately prevail and that should be everyone's desired outcome. Note: faith, not belief. in practice, pfft, humans are messy creatures.

Yeah I'm a no theory MFer. I mean I'm not totally devoid of theory, enough to recognise a good thing and get with the cause. But I am far more interested in Actually Doing Something than participating in a party. So I am basically a free agent ideologically-agnostic socialist, offering or bringing my services or like, just thinking "hey I bet the guys are the protest could use some water" and showing up with a couple cases of bottled water. Suddenly I'm back stage with our indigenous people looking at me sus while I'm like "ey I just thought yall might want something to drink, here take two, I'll leave now, keep fighting. I'm sorry you even have to struggle."

That's like, the anarchist part of me, the part that will contribute off rip without expecting compensation or recognition (from behind my mask and goggles lol) or kudos or anything. It's the same part of me that if I had a ride-on mower would be anarcho-grillpilled riding it down the road like I'm str8 outta florida to the local park to cut the grass because the council takes too long and certain animals I know need that space to play.

It's the same part of me that saves injured wildlife. I resist the bystander effect and try to think ahead of what the least glorious most useful thing to contribute would be and then just do it because we don't need permission to do praxis.

In an org I would have the responsibility to represent. I don't know that I'm consistent enough or disciplined enough not to be a problem. I get it cops faces at protests and try to provoke them. I'll boost the youth onto rooftops and whatnot to get the high ground to put up their banners and posters and paint in front of the pigs, they dont even need to ask, it's applied moshpit etiquette and I love that they're active and doing something.

Not everything I do is probably fully defensible from a true ML analysis point of view, my work may be ineffectual and opportunistic, but I am what I am and I'm basically oppositional / defiant and have been since I started getting abused by teachers in schools for being neurodivergent. I'm the vanguard or the backstop for the boomer level local organising, a wink and a sly comment so they know who to come to if all else fails and someone has to go do something hilarious.

I should stop typing now. I pity the law firm intern who has to comb through my posts if something ever does happen and if I have fucked up my opsec in an unplanned way and end up finding this unique persona and account.

(DW they wont.

Anyway, that's why I'm "not" an anarchist. But in practice, well. Aktion speaks louder than words.

frens

is more or less a dogwhistle fwiw. it's more complex than that but it's adjacent.

Okay I can see your point. I'm a lonely MFer and wish I hadn't been expelled from so many platforms and communities. I'm usually in the poweruser/moderator/admin pipeline within weeks of getting into any real social platforms.

I wish I could agree with you about that on hexbear but I think it is either:

• risky for me, in particular
• risky for people who might feel a social connection with me
• probably risky for everyone for many overlapping and additional reasons

I think encouraging it encourages bad praxis for more serious forums for discussing direct action and could lead to infiltrators finding our vulnerables and grooming them into doing a thing. I think we should try to just be a list of almost forgettable names.

HB is a weird place sitting at a place of "clearnet, but you're safe to shitpost about how many ways to kill a CEO you have tried IRL" and the sort of space that could produce some real fucken hitters if we're "not careful" (do it right lolol) and I just don't know how I feel about it as a place to form and break social bonds within. That sort of thing can fuck up communities.

Like I'm fucking gutted that popular user recently left and (probably irrationally) worry it was somehow my fault. They probably just needed a break or realised we aren't as serious as they are about taking a hard line against and it's got nothing to do with me at all. Gutted because we connected over something I wrote, in a brief few exchanges in the thread, and now they're gone and their nice words are gone and I never wrote down their final music recommendation to me so I'm pissed about that too. I'm fucking pissed.

There is another user who if they read this will probably know who they are who I made a point to avoid posting anything but the vaguest and comfiest replies to originally, before I took a break, cuz "they just like me fr" and I've had discord people end up in psychiatric care / relapsed / permanently damaged because of a brief online fling.

So while I agree that we're at a higher level, and real recognise real here and there- I just.. i've seen it go catastrophically bad many times before.

Should have a mastodon thingo for that sort of "getting to know each other thing" imo. I'm not gonna pretend like there aren't posters forming deep friendships via DM already on here but it just. It's risky. I'm a casualty of a community turning their back on me and supporting an abuser who once ousted me from the community got me perma'd from discord (nbd, i am hackerman) but like, it hurts on an epigenetic memories type level from the tens of thousands of years where people had was each other to stay alive.

I dunno. I still think about this issue a lot. Like whether I should put feelers out to see if anyone wants to invite me to a more appropriate specific community to hang out and get a better social itch scratched. Maybe I will maybe I won't. I hope to be in prison for direct action reasons within ~18 months or to have moved on to a more holistically healthy IRL lifestyle.

Do you really have an up-armored stormchaser rig? Mommy?

Oh I wanted to also add that because OG Daggerfall is "opensource" a lot of the "benefits" of the unity port (fixede dungeon generation and other repetitive or annoying things) are probably also available as mods for the original.