HexaSnoot

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[–] [email protected] 5 points 4 weeks ago* (last edited 4 weeks ago) (1 children)

Capitalism has hijacked what the general public views as a "grown up". So i don't say grow up. People who act immature are still having a legit adulthood. It just that that's what their adulthood looks like.

My issue is not that they're not grown ups. My issue is that they're self projecting cowards who don't deal with their own bullshit insecurities. That they're downpunchers trying to make me absorb their damage.

Now I'm trying to not change minds. Skipping explaining that they're sad and should punch upwards, and simply being confronting about what they're doing. Responding coldly.

[–] [email protected] 6 points 4 weeks ago* (last edited 4 weeks ago) (2 children)

Lol I used to know people who actually act like the characters and so the chaos of the show stung for a while. But in the past year I finally learned to love it because my brain can register it's just a show.

[–] [email protected] 6 points 4 weeks ago* (last edited 4 weeks ago)

I know someone whose good at both, giving withering roasts and grey rocking. They confronted my bullies. One avoided the confrontation by hiding in another room with the door closed. The other was smarmy and denied ever doing what they did to me. My friend is pretty impenetrable when it comes to gradeschool-level bullying. This was all done when we confronted them completely peacefully. He understands the quote, "no one can make you feel inferior without your consent." I think the beginning of me understanding that quote is to learn how to speak up for myself. And that involves taking risks.

I understand there are abusers with personality disorders, but I've seen my friend shut down even those people. There are people who are simply immature abusers without personality disorders, and I mostly want to start standing up to them. Either way, when someone is incapable of taking accountability for their wrongs, I want to show they shouldn't try to step on me to begin with. People avoid mistreating my friend and I want that treatment by being just as witty as him.

[–] [email protected] 6 points 4 weeks ago* (last edited 4 weeks ago)

I just looked up smarmy. It's a great word to define a lot of the public personas of covert abusers I've known. What a great word.

[–] [email protected] 6 points 4 weeks ago (3 children)

How so? Because I strongly feel that but I don't know exactly how.

[–] [email protected] 5 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

Is it really? because I've felt this is a pattern but I didn't know it's true 100% of the time.

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 month ago

It's weird people call eating sushi for the first time and Asian women both the same thing : "exotic."

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

I've never listened to NPR so I had no idea why they were talking like that. My boyfriend had to tell me. It's disturbing that people unoronically listen to NPR.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 month ago

I saw this video a few months ago. I loved the depth of geography amd culture it brought to me! Loads of American film makers better take notes from this.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 month ago

Their advertisement looks REALLY good. I will be trying it later.

[–] [email protected] 8 points 1 month ago

Just did one lesson of Hello Chinese and you're right, it is better. I should probably get a screen pen for the app's Chinese characters to learn writing.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 month ago (1 children)

What's Said's full name?

 

I saw some set in ancient China which seemed pretty cool. I'd love to find it and get some subtitles going.

One show had an evil character that was a woman with many lower ear piercings. Starting on her ear lobes, trailing up the edge of her ear. She seemed like a power hungry royal who'd slap and punish other women a lot. Really pretty show. Her looks and character's tendencies are why I remember it.

 

She responded to accusations of being a Nazi by posting she's proud of "white culture" and I'd like to quit consuming her stuff.

 

My perfectionism is disabling. I ban myself from doing anything I don't feel like I'll do perfect at. I barely do things I love and don't know my interests well. I love people and mingling, but I grew up selectively mute until highschool and to this day I have a hard time being direct. I overthink all texts. I used to type one sentence for hours and not send anything. My humor is very underdeveloped because I don't risk bombing jokes. There's so much I won't do unless someone is there encouraging me and enthusiastically approving of what I'm doing. I have severely low self esteem because of my level of perfectionism. I just want to hang out and chill with people and have interests that I act on.

Btw, what do you do when you need to do something you love, fast?

 

Like in a dehumanizing manner. I want to go by it/they/them but I'm scared I won't be able to handle it if someone does that.

 

I prefer giving to a mutual aid resource, but other kinds of answers are fine.

I know goodwill is shitty, I won't give to them.

 

It would be deeply triggering to see him and he is extremely manipulative, plus he has friends that attend the scene. Some of them were doing meth last I saw them over ten years ago.

If I make friends, they could easily link back to him through themselves or multiple people. I seriously cannot tolerate that. I don't want him knowing anything about me and my life.

Do you think I can manage being part of a small scene with these conditions?

 

I think hexbear has them. Is it a connection thing where cookies spot other cookies? Do tracking cookies matter when it comes to insurance and therapy sites/apps? I'm thinking about therapy that I saw advertised on YouTube, and I bet they're somehow sketchy. And their app requires the use of third party tracking and cookies.

I just don't want these sites/apps to see I'm a communist.

 

I'm curious how that could work. That peaks my interest because I've known people who have autism and seem great at socializing. I don't have autism, but I'm very socially awkward, and if autistic people can do that I find it inspirational for my own socializing journey.

A podcaster on Radio Free Totebag casually said it, and idk if it was just as a passing joke, or if they were speaking factually. They mentioned a therapist not liking that they still say they're autistic when it's an old diagnosis.

 

I'm more exposed to American conservatism. And even here I barely understand it. I used to be Christian, but I left the religion before I realized I was bi, and before I knew genderfluidity and trans people existed.

I guess I'd have to know why individual religious groups, countries, cities,(etc...) have anti-LGBTQ beliefs. Maybe there are no blanket statements that properly address it for the entire world.

 

Worked a lot as a child and barely played. Missed out on lots of personality development. I have more free time now and I want to play, but I don't totally understand how.

I was told when I have something fun to do, learn to fail the marshmallow test and just immediately eat the marshmallow. I feel paralyzed. I'm used to playing only if I'm invited by someone else to play, and I want to play more when I'm alone.

So far I sometimes draw and read a fun book. Both usually make me anxious, but they bring me feelings of accomplishment.

 

Obviously there's the dialectics where it can be the opposite. I need to view it as more of a loving world right now.

 

I want to be more mindful about the light I cast myself in. I leave myself little room to grow and it'd be beneficial to adventure my way to better self perception.

I have self esteem issues that have me avoid testing how I'll react to different scenarios. Whatever "wrong" means, I often assume I'll react "wrongly." I constantly shut down chances for myself to experience more things in life. Like when people give ideas for things I can do, I almost always reject them because I assume I'm incapable of doing those ideas.

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