CommunistBear

I successfully did my first dry January. I'm currently sitting at 45 days of no alcohol.

One thing I've noticed recently is that I'm not really sleeping that well. Part of it is due to wanting to game late into the night but the other half is that night time procrastination because I don't want the day to be over yet. So I stay up far too late and then am just a zombie the next morning. I know I can fix it by just going to sleep at an appropriate time but I feel like the underlying reasons why I keep doing this need to be addressed.

Other than sleep issues, I do need to do more physical activities and eat better. I've been semi-consistent with calisthenics stuff but without any real program. My main desire at this point is just to stem the decay of my body and stop my back from hurting all the fucking time.

I'm back and I'm back on the wagon. I'm up to 38 days with no alcohol. I'm California sober though so I still smoke weed. It's wild to me how quickly my alcohol cravings basically disappear as soon as I start smoking weed again. I know it's not great for me but considering how much I was drinking before, any way of reducing that is good imo.

I need to start being more physical in my day to day life. My weight is hovering around 200 lbs rn after peaking out at around 210 over the holidays. For the longest time I wasn't able to eat dairy so saying no to various desserts was easy for me but ever since fixing my lactose intolerance I've been making up for lost time. I really should go back to biking to work everyday as a form of latent exercise but riding my motorcycle is just more fun and easier. On top of that, I really need to start doing stuff to get stronger. I want to start rock climbing again but the cost is making it way less appealing.

I'll add more next time, as of now my plans are to keep on keeping on.

We've been screaming for years that we aren't ok

Is it 20 million infected or 20 million have died? The headline and the body say different things. The article says 20 million were killed by the disease in the last quarter of 2024 which I think implies way higher than 20 million infections

It took roughly 3 minutes of scrolling before I got a socialist art account ran by an account with a Stalin pfp. I felt right at home

Because we live in the Good Country™ that doesn't do propaganda and they're the Bad Country™ that does propaganda. Too many people have not yet killed their idealized version of the US that exists purely in fantasy instead of the blood-soaked monster the US is in reality

I know this is a joke but I do understand the appeal. I could literally triple my salary by becoming a cop and even have the connections to make it happen. But I just don't want to be a piece of shit

I may be able to stop in but my partner is currently sick so idk if I'll be able to make it. If possible I do want to come check it out on my own though

Critical support to the NY DA in intentionally sandbagging the prosecution to let the CEO slayer off

I absolutely love root beer and I will look for Red Arrow. Hopefully it's available in my region. Years ago I would have recommended Virgil's but I had it again recently and the quality seems to have taken a massive dive.

My problem is that all of my W's felt hollow. They didn't make me feel any better mentally nor change the structural shit that are the real foundational problems for me. Yes, physically I felt better. But that didn't cross over into other aspects of my life and that juxtaposition is part of what made me spiral. I'm still broke. I still hate my shitty job. I'm still not happy with my life in general. There are aspects of my life that are going alright and I do appreciate them but the big, foundational stuff feels even more like an unchanging monolith.