Melbourne

Woo Hoo!!!! Bot progress.

A few more tweaks before I can do the daily thread reliably, but the main hurdle has been overcome. It's alive!

So update to the eye patch saga - my bf came to pick me up for dinner last night wearing a pirate hat. Love his sense of humour. I then wore the pirate hat to work this morning, just to really lean into this. It's been a great laugh, thankfully my eye is already feeling much better and the hat is now just a decoration on my desk.

So today I got a pay rise and am celebrating with ginger beer for grown ups while I wait for the grocery delivery. Am feeling very grateful, fortunate and appreciated.

Reading through my second full draft of my thesis. And you know what? Sometimes, sometimes I can be really smart.

I also won $500 presenting my research yesterday, which was great. Promptly had to spent $200 of it on petrol and two (2) make up products, which was not so great.

Was hearing stories of people 'queuing for 10 hours' for Taylor Swift tickets only to realise they meant somehow queuing online for that time? You know *back in my day * I camped outside the ticketek office overnight to get Nine Inch Nails concert tickets - ah how times change!

You might think you've had struggles in your life. And I'm sure you have. But they're nothing compared to the agonies of a spoilt cat who only gets fed three times a day and isn't getting attention right at this minute.

Just wanted to report in and say my #2's are finally back to normal.

Been almost 3 weeks. You have no idea how happy that makes me (and 4kgs lighter).

PeelerSheila you have inspired me tonight. I was tempted to skip my planned workout and do a quick dodgy dinner, but thought to myself "if PeelerSheila can peel 80kg of potatoes, and manage to keep to an exercise routine, I can manage one dinner and a few sets of weights". And I did, healthy dinner made & heavy things lifted repeatedly. 💪

So caught the bouquet throwing at the wedding I went to and I'd like to talk strategy.

https://imgur.com/np8wWJU

If the ceiling is low your best bet is being up the front.

Let's talk about cutlery. I have my favourites. Some of them were lost during the Great Lockdown. Some have gone AWOL in the abyss which is the teenager's bedroom. Some come staggering home wary from whatever horrors they've been a part of. Always to a warm welcome and a very hot bath.

I got told "You're weird. Nobody counts their knives and forks". I said "You're wrong because Nana does".

I think someone should go over to reddit dt and recruit more members for the fun dt (here). Someone sober. Really sell it them.

Doodles in the sun - now time for some lunch

Fat cat update. A spot has been found and she's doing the Thriller dance in her sleep.

Wow, I think I've finally established some kind of regular routine to life. What a fucking year it's been. Looking forward to enjoying the regularness of a new life I worked pretty hard to set up, sober and female. My adhd seems to have settled down a lot now I've cut back on caffiene, no booze and better levels of oestrogen in my bloodstream.

I do aa, play with my cats, make food, do a little exercise and waste time on the internet. I need to start looking for work, but I have very few usable skills which don't pertain the the music industry. My sister's eap extends to immediate family and they do career counselling so I'm calling them on Monday. Jobs victoria also, and then try and get another look into doing one of these carer trainesships. I don't want to have to become a cleaner or dishpig so someone who can identify my strengths would be excellent.

At least I've been active work wise while I've been on leave with all the volunteering. Meh, 15 years of two nights a week for a good wage and now I'll be back to full time to get close to that again. I don't think it will be a bad thing though, all that free time just led me to substance abuse time and again. Being trans has been such a great opportunity for complete re-invention and enabled me to look after and love myself properly for the first time in my life, so I'm gonna be ok. thx for reading, and thanks everyone for following my journey both here and before on reddit. I've felt such wonderful things and made a couple of new friends from the people who've replied and engaged. It even seems like my downvoters have disappeared.

After spending most of the day today and the other day patiently watching a number of devices refresh every 10 seconds, my niece managed to get 4 tickets. You could say she is a little fucking excited.

Dinner tonight was a bit yummy, and contained no potatoes.

potato free dinner

Salmon with carrot, beans and asparagus, with balsamic dried cherry tomatoes, garlic and chipotle

My anxiety is stabbing me with a rough stick straight up the rectum lately. I hit up some CBD oil in the hopes it'll calm my heart down. I really hate this feeling though - trying to grab thoughts is like trying to catch a particular drop of water in a raging river.

I'm about to try something which some people might consider.. unnatural. I'm going to make 2 minute noodles, 2 packs except one pack is chicken, the other beef.

They'll call me crazy. They'll say I'm unhinged. They'll say ol' Bull has finally gone too far. This is science at its most extreme and only the bold are etched into the annals of history.

UPDATE: it made both flavours worse for doing it. It wasn't bad but either flavour alone would be better. Science.

I didn't feel the quake. But I just want to chuck a hissy fit about it being two years in a row that EOFY has coincided with pay day (or the day after). Pay was supposed to be yesterday, I still haven't been paid and this has been my skintest fortnight. Grrrr. I know they've processed payroll but are the banks/accounting systems that overloaded that payments could be delayed this much?

E: oh well, I have enough to get me a coffee and pie when I get to Up North.

Was that an earthquake?

Errrrrrk. Just got home. Time to defrost some frozen food and pour me a glass of wine. Then sleep like the dead. See you peeps tomorrow.

Around 36 hours until our Reddit apps stop working.

Get over to the reddit dt and start upvoting MeanElevator. He's done good.

Day 5 of workout. I did it, and it felt a little hard but I got through. There were more tummy/core exercises in this one so that's probably why. I hate exercising in my house because there's no room to really spread out for things like reverse snow angels.

Filming at Mount Macedon this morning so hopefully it's not going to rain and ruin it all. At least it will be a cruisy 1 hour autopilot drive which I look forward

New to me movie for today was The Heartbreak Kid. yeah I know it's old but I hadn't seen it.

Well, that movie would have a different ending if it were made this year. I would at minimum expect an inquiry, at most jail. I suppose it hinges on if the kid can give consent.

I really have trouble seeing this as a coming of age or young woman breaks free story.

I also watched Tar with Cate Blanchett. 😲 It's a horror story and a morality tale. When you break ethical rules in a heartless thoughtless way and hurt feelings ( tho the rule breaking seems like harmless teenage drama ) you risk attracting really bad people and incurring serious consequences

I'm making buffalo wings today (I can't find the link but it'll be from recipetin eats) they'll be paired nicely with beer, music and cricket for afters.

First thoughts this morning:

1. There was an earthquake?
2. There's a place here called Rawson?

The beers are cold. Got the cricket and footy on the split screen (yet to start). Disco lights. Lunatics are dancing. Air Supply on the jukebox. The dog's letting off some rippers. Just like a real life local pub.

Mrs stupid fucking car is back again. Mechanic cant fault it, but suggested to call mazda as he suspect theres a bigger problem. Mazda confirmed its in the "troublesome era" of Mazda diesels, and they are happy to take a look.... next month when they have time. F me! told the mrs this is the LAST straw. If a fault cant be identified she is to enthusiastically endorse me selling it, since some how this has wound up being my problem yet I wanted to sell it months ago.

I wish humans didn't have toes. Toes are fucking dumb. Can we evolve already?

Sorry if there’s a designated area to talk Taylor but I’m struggling to scroll down here at the mo. But we had no luck getting tickets. 6 hours and 3 devices on different internet connections only to get hit with SOLD OUT. Luckily am not a mega fan just thought it’d be fun if we could get tickets. (EDIT: I mean I am somewhat of a fan obvi just not a diehard)

Father in law recently gave us his Beatles memorabilia from when they had their similarly massive concert here, which we’re having framed up so I thought it’d be cool to tell the grandkids we went one day haha. Oh well!

Cat starts OCD drugs tomorrow. I am in very many minds about this. Love his vibrancy but eating furniture is not ok.