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There's no 100% risk-free option. You should know the effects of estrogen and make peace with them/make a plan for what you are and aren't okay with before starting. But in my book, risk is just life. You aren't going to have boobs overnight, but breast growth, while pretty slow, will start within a couple weeks.

Make of that what you will. If it does make you happy, would it be worth growing boobs? If it doesn't, do you trust yourself to stop promptly before unwanted effects set in.

I want to be a femboy [...] I don't want boobs though

People online have tried and theorized various regimens to achieve what you describe, but nothing is anywhere near well trodden enough to be blanket-recommendable, you'd have to either work with a friendly doctor or do your own research and tread carefully with DIY if you are comfortable doing so.

Some options in that realm are explored in articles on https://transfemscience.org/articles/ (eg here and here) and probably various less reputable places online.

I tend to agree with the sentiment that if you're trying estrogen as a bit you should at least interrogate that feeling further, or just try it. It's not a very cis thought. Its not a decision anyone else can make for you though.

I recently saw a genuinely dispiriting article celebrating a long-time local bowling alley by telling the cute anecdote of how they secretly let regulars in to bowl during lockdown, and then using it as an analogy to segue to an anecdote about the original founder doing some trivial act of transgressing corporate rules 60 years ago.

Like jesus, I know none of you fuckers care now, but the fact that we are retconning the past too? Disgusting. Our lockdown was not strict and lasted like a goddamn month or two, it wasn't a harrowing experience, and it was woefully insufficient, not some overreaction or triviality. I'd say it saved lives but because of liberal cowardice and dipshits like those business owners and their customers, it really only delayed a few deaths.

but with your phone

I've never in my life met a chud who willingly lived in this small of a house. assuming there's nothing above the garage its a total footprint of 20x30 feet, significantly less than 600sqft interior. This is the kind of house chuds try to split into two dogshit studio apartments and rent out for a profit.

you can't raise an evangelical-sized family in that size house built to american standards. If its two stories its pretty modest, if its one its tiny tiny.

Not to mention the hilariously small animal pens and crop fields

You can supplement your food intake with a garden but you aren't going to be self sufficient on 1 acre lmao, and your garden isn't going to have the same yield as a farm field, and those animals are going to just die or be miserable and you're going to be utterly dependent on wherever you buy their feed from

Its fine to take some time off of HRT. I mean its not the best for me in terms of how I feel mentally, but not catastrophic and physically afaik its fine. I was just off for quite a while and started back up again last week like it's nothing, felt better after a couple days.

Its also fine to revisit this when you're feeling better. None of this has to be a permanent decision you make on the spot and dig into permanently.

I've got a similar relationship with my parents tbh (minus the going through my stuff, though they were a little nosy when I was a kid) so I get the reticence to tell them.

my strat would probably be to do the spy shit but less "stay-behind weapons cache in the woods" and more "deposit box" or dead drop or something (I stored my hrt just in a cabinet unprotected at room temp for ages, it may not be ideal but its fine).

I mean honestly, even if you just found say, a trans-friendly business and asked if someone could store your supplies for you, and you just visit once a week, inject in the bathroom, and go home, that could work. It takes some trust and some chatting and feeling it out, but at least where I'm from I'm confident someone would do it for me.

But you can make your own decisions, I perhaps got overexcited offering ideas, I hope it works out for you regardless

State and Revolution is SHOCKINGLY clear and accessible, and yes, not a million pages long.

I read the first 30 or so pages. It seems promising. It's setting the stage for sort of an anthropological study of class based on interviews with a large number of working class people, exploring their feelings about upward mobility and exploitation and the sort of sense of inadequacy many feel about being of low status or education or origin in a society dominated by the "well to do" accultured few...

It started off with a brief outline of the evolving lives and views of two former communists, which was interesting, and I'm very curious to see if and how it circles back to them. There's an examination of whether/why American workers lack revolutionary potential, and seems to show significant criticism of the purely economic explanations that a lot of people on both the left and right hold, the idea that it just boils down to bread and circuses and some small measure of economic stability. It seems like they're trying to thread the needle and examine social forces that act on working class people , without completely collapsing into individualistic nonsense.

There's also a CW: SA needed within the first 2 pages of the introduction

WOAH! could be just a funny coincidence, but I picked up an old book a couple months ago, from a junk store, called verbatim, The Hidden Injuries of Class

Looks like it was released in 1972, which iirc was around the time of Parenti's leftward turn (his first book, The Anti-Communist Impulse was release in '69).

I picked it up based on the summary and some light skimming, assuming it would be pretty lib but sounded maybe worth a shot, but this gives me a bit more hope for it having some value, if it may have made an impression on Parenti...

it's on libgen/archive.org it seems

https://libgen.is/book/index.php?md5=A98146A793EC86689DEE33E499378729

https://archive.org/details/hiddeninjuriesof00sennrich/page/n291/mode/2up

I haven't read it yet but this may inspire me to pick it up

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https://www.businessinsider.com/aoc-attacks-nypd-for-threatening-bill-de-blasios-daughter-after-arrest-2020-6?op=1

DeBlasio's daughter was arrested for blocking traffic at a protest, the pig union posted her mugshot and personal details on twitter, and used it to attack DeBlasio. There may have been some further subtext about keeping her jailed or pushing for prosecution for political reasons

not to mention the fact that the rich have AC too so they're not in danger regardless

yeah I was out in similar (higher heat index but lower temp) weather and I thought I was doing good, taking it slow, covering my face from the sun, drinking some water and gatorade

But after I got back inside I felt really faint for a few mins.

2 years ago I did basically what you did, but on a bike. brand new bike, had to take it for a ride, almost couldn't get up the stairs to the door when I got back.