theresa

joined 9 months ago
 

Hey y'all, this is a bit of a personal rant and maybe a space for other people to share their experiences in the comments. I'm just looking for some advice on how to make the wait for bottom surgery more bearable.

Mine is probably about 6-8 months away, though I don't have an exact surgery date yet. There are some days where it's really fine and I don't even notice my parts down there but then there are others where it's unbearable to even get out of bed. Sometimes I just want to cut the damn thing off myself, I feel like I can't bear to lug it around for even one more day.

I know that I'm a woman (ish) no matter my genitals but it just pisses me off so much that I'll forever be an experiment for people (especially men) when I try dating as long as I don't have a vulva. That I can't go to women's changing rooms without having a complete breakdown (I did it once and have avoided them since in the last 1.5 years). That I can't go swimming in the same clothes all my friends can. That I can't enjoy buying nice underwear because it always looks so horribly wrong. That I feel it every second of every day, that I always have to cover it up when I wear tight bottoms, that I always have to worry and think about it. I hate it, I really do. Every time I touch it, it feels more like a tumor or some kind of demon that has manifested in my body. My bottom dysphoria has become worse and worse the better everything else gets. You win some, you lose some, I guess. All in all, life has gotten significantly better in the last two years for me. I feel like I still have the same amount of dysphoria as I did before starting HRT, only now it's concentrated more on this part of my body.

Okay, rant over, haha. Hope to hear some of your experiences and what helped you through the wait.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 5 months ago
 

Well, it's more or less in the title. I've been on HRT for about 10 months now and I have significantly decreased my alcohol intake since then, didn't drink at all in the first two months. I now have a drink about every two weeks and of course, my tolerance is way down. But I've noticed that while I'm fine drinking wine (and drunk after two glasses, which is fine), beer is absolutely not an option anymore. I just get sick in the stomach after having even just one beer. I've tried lager and Guinness and they've both produced the same effect. It's not really a problem for me, though I would enjoy a pint here and there.

Anyone else here who had the same happen to them? Is there any biological/hormonal/chemical reason for it maybe?

[–] [email protected] 4 points 9 months ago (1 children)

I always keep a supply of nuts, mainly cashews and salted peanuts, on my desk to snack on during the day. Healthy fats!

[–] [email protected] 5 points 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) (1 children)

Hey, just wanna chime in with my experience, 6 months on HRT. I started at 183cm/61kg and HRT made it a lot easier for me to eat regularly, I didn't eat breakfast most days before. Now, I'm eating a hearty breakfast and lots of snacks inbetween (almost didn't snack at all before) and I LOST weight, last I checked was a month ago or so at 59kg. I figure most of that was muscle though, my thighs grew a bit. So eat away, I'd say. I'm eating a good 25% more than before HRT and am barely keeping my weight.