I feel you sis. I didn't transition until last year at 47 ๐ญ straight into a grandma basically and I thought it was a safe time but apparently not so much eh.
And I thought my partner of 25 years was bi but she isn't for me and gee does that sting.
the world is a fuck. I hate being trans, audhd, bipolar, ptsd riddled. i resent that i have to give myself needles every week and take pills every day for the rest of my life just to not have shitty thoughts and feelings too.
What can you do though? this might be my only life like you said so i'm still gonna stick around and see what happens.
All that bitterness released, even after a year I surprised myself in the bathroom mirror just an hour ago and got to gaze at my true adorable self and I couldn't go back. If I gotta exist on this ridiculous planet I like being soft. I'd rather be a lonely trans grandma than the sad boi i was most of my life.
how big was this radish!?!? that looks so good!! I just made my first kimchi last week too! Korean style with napa cabbage and gochujang:
just a little batch to try it out. I am giving it a few more days before i try it. fingers crossed!