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I spoke with my little brother a lot today. He seems really happy. Hence, I'm really happy!

I'll get my hair cut tomorrow and I'll hang out with a friend, we'll get sushi together and then maybe go for a swim at the pool.

I wore pants.

The world seems good, when I don't think. When I do think, it suddenly has some rotten bits. Still, it still seems good.

Looking back, I feel I've changed a lot. I've learned, and I've changed. It's a good feeling, but I'm left thinking about how much more I'm gonna change. I look forward to it.

Today was really good!

I wore my corduroy trousers, cotton plaid shirt, and my brand-new leather shoes. Technically, my shirt was also brand-new, though I did get it a couple of days ago, and this was also the first time I ever wore my corduroy trousers out, so they all felt brand-new.

Anyway!! I loved it. It was really comfortable, and, well, really stylish, I think! I'm really happy I got to wear that.

I think my shoes looked so good... The colour is so oddly delicious. It's like chocolate. The only thing, gosh, is the belt. I really need a belt!! My pants fit my pretty much exactly, so I don't need a belt in a structural sense, but aesthetically, my outfit is missing that middle part. I need a dark brown belt to match my shoes. Gosh, that... When I pull that out... I can't wait!!

Tomorrow, unfortunately, I'll be going to my brother's, so I won't put on anything special, including my new shoes and my other new shirt. Instead, I'll use a white shirt I have here and, I think, some black pants, and sneakers. Casual, very basic, but nice. Also, convenient for travel and biking.

I don't really have much more to report... I did have a very nice conversation with my coworker, today. She's really nice.

Today, my new shoes got delivered.

The world -- nay, the UNIVERSE!!! -- is not, fucking, ready!!!!

The fit... The fit I'm about to put on. Oh, the fit I'm about to put on! I'M ABOUT TO REVOLUTIONIZE FASHION FOR ALL ETERNITY!!!!

THEY WILL SING SONGS ABOUT ME!!!!!!!!

Or not. Frankly, I never liked songs about particular people very much; Notable exception being Grace Kelly, of course.

REGARDLESS!

The shirt? On point. The pants? Awesome. The... The shoes... Oh, my boy, my dearest boy (talking to my heart), why beat you so hasty? Reason: simple; Shoes are fucking awesome.

Classic, impeccable. Can't go wrong sort of style, but like, can't go wrong some 50 years ago in the middle of butt-fuck nowhere if you had a little too much money for someone that lived in butt-fuck nowhere. Still.

I wore jeans today,

But tomorrow... I'm pulling out the corduroy.

YOU HEARD ME! TOMORROW!!!! IS THE DEBUT OF THE CORDUROY KING!!! (Me)

I was considering the cotton-linen shirt, being that I think the colours are really nice, but I'm feeling like the brown is too much when everything else is also brown. Instead, I'm going with the brown AND blue shirt. Socks? BLUE!!!!

I'M ABOUT TO ROCK THESE PEOPLE'S WHOLE FUCKING WORLD!!!!

I know what you're thinking... «Is this dude (genius fashionista) really about to waste the fit of the century on a menial work day?»

Well, yes. That's the beauty of it, really. It's something I can wear any day. Any day. I can put this on and rock your world.

Where do you live, reader?

Sleep with one eye open, and then close it, lest you peep the fucking fit, and die. Of awe.

GON OUT!!!!

Got a couple of new shirts, today :D They're exactly as I envisioned them, maybe even better!!

I'm very excited to wear them. However, I wanted to wear them with some new shoes, which should be arriving relatively soon, as well. I'm excited to try it all out, see how it goes, which I hope is really good.

I went for a walk, today, and it was pretty nice. It rained a little, so I got wet, but it's fine. It's nice to also feel the rain, it chills you out a little, I feel like.

The rain, however, is a bad premonition. I bike to work. If it rains... Well, you know. DAMN!!!!!

Let's hope it's not raining tomorrow morning, but even if it is, it's fine. I'll use my rain cover and hope for the best. It wouldn't be the first time.

I wore jeans, today.

I did laundry today.

It took a little longer than I expected, frankly, but I think everything worked out fine. I hope so, at least! Clothes look alright. Let's hope they dry good.

Otherwise, today was a pretty decent day!

I kind of feel like I have a lot to say. I've been thinking about a lot of things, about what I do, how I do it, my goals. About just moving along and taking risks.

About the kind of person I want to become. What I want to look back at, the trail I want to leave behind.

Thinking about if that matters at all, or if I should just focus on treading a path ahead that I can feel confident following. Maybe those are both the same thing. Maybe not so much.

I feel like there's something out there for me. It's an odd feeling. It's not so much that there's something I want to chase, though there are things that I am chasing and very much want to keep pursuing, until I get them, but moreso what I mean is that I feel like there's something that I might stumble upon.

I talked about sitting on a park bench, some days ago. I think that's what I was getting at, in retrospect.

I would really love to stumble into something incredible.

I wore pants, today. Tomorrow, I hope to go pick up some shirts I bought and wear them! Excited about that. I should also be getting some new shoes that I finally decided to get. Let's see how this works out.

I worked really hard on my exercise, today!!! I OUTDID MYSELF, I CAN FEEL IT!!!

Well, I don't know, I guess tomorrow I'll really feel it, if I did it right. Or not. I guess I can't see the future.

I wore jeans today, and got a little sweaty, but it's OK! Man, do I feel good!

:D A good day, a better day.

Made cheese too, and my granny made great food for me to take to the job tomorrow.

I still need to work on getting some fresh veggies in my diet, though. That's the one thing!

I had a good time talking to people, today.

It kind of did a number on my throat, quite frankly, but it was enjoyable nonetheless. I had fun!

Wore jeans. And a polo! What could go wrong? Answer: many things; yet, nothing did...

Lots of different punctuation marks in that previous paragraph. It doesn't matter if they were used incorrectly, by the way.

Anyway, other than that, not much to report.

Did some push ups today, definitely getting stronger. Weighted myself, did drop about 1 kg, which I expected - not the exact number, but the drop. I did start cycling again and eating a little less, it makes sense.

Spoke with a friend and decided to message another friend. Hope she's doing well... I'll build up the guts to shoot her a DM.

I'm so thoroughly exhausted... I moved myself damn near 'til my wheels fell off!!

Wait... Where are they?

MY WHEELS!! NOOOO MY WHEELS!!!

THEY...

THEY'VE FALLEN OFF!

Plus, my legs hurt. My hamstrings, specifically, but really just my whole legs.

I wore jeans today, very comfortable.

I feel like I'm struggling to think... I'm just so tired. But hey, sushi tomorrow! Yay! :D

I've been feeling somewhat unyieldingly positive.

Mind you, bad stuff still happens and I still feel down, but I feel like I'm seeing the bright side very often.

That feels good.

It is starting to feel a tiny bit manic, though... I'm a little giddy. I don't like that very much, but it is fine, for now. I'll get to rest quite a bit this weekend, I hope, but we'll see how I hold up.

I wore pants again today. I don't actually like these pants very much, I'm realizing, because they're very wide. Or... My legs are very skinny? Today is leg day, actually, so maybe that's about to change! Then again, I think it is really is that the pants are just kind of wide.

I bought two shirts, today. Huge discount from a national brand, so I felt like... Why not? I want to buy more shirts anyway, this seems like as good an opportunity as I'll ever get for this. At least one of them should arrive tomorrow. I'll see if that holds up.

Today is upper body day.

My shoulders hurt like a butt on a stick... Which, I'm hoping, is a good sign. I might've actually worked them good! This time, however, I felt somehow weaker than last time. I didn't count my reps very well, I think because I wasn't very into it, but I think just doing 4 sets to failure works fine, as long as I keep my reps in that reasonable range of 8-12 or something. I just go as much as I can, with form as good as I can keep it.

My shoulders though, I feel like I really hit those, this time. I really hit 'em! I think big shoulders look cool, so... Good!

On another note... I felt like I didn't do much work today. It felt a little monotonous and boring, but it's fine, I guess. I'm just looking at patents, summarising them, and asking the question: Can we work around this?

I guess maybe the question is moreso "How do we work around this?" but whatever...

I'll go for my walk today, again, and this time I think I'll go somewhere different! I'm excited to try out different routes and see where I land, see what I see. Maybe see something cool!

Something I noticed, which might not be so great, is that I'm not eating very much. Mind you, I'm eating a decent amount, it's just that I'm not adding that bunch of bread and tons of cheese that I was eating while my parents were still here... I don't have a scale, so I don't really know what my weight is doing, right now. I don't see any obvious changes in my body, of course, since it's only been 3 days, but I am wondering if I'm in a caloric deficit.

I'm eating 3 apples per day, though. That's kind of neat. No such thing as too many apples, unless you're eating way too many apples. I also bought some veggie packs so take for my lunches... Which actually makes my lunches kind of expensive, in relative terms! They were 2.49 € each, so that's already quite a bit. The rice is relatively cheap, at least the amount I'm eating, an apple is also just a few cents, water barely anything, so the tuna can is the other "big" expense for lunch, and that's almost 1 €! Almost, so not quite, more like 90 cents, possibly even less if I buy the cheapest ones, definitely less if I buy something other than tuna. Still! We're almost at 4 € per lunch. That would be... Well, I might be crossing into 150 € monthly for food, which is considerably more than I would prefer.

Something I could do is buy vegetables separately and cut them up myself, of course, but I don't really have much space... I can make space, I suppose. Yeah, I can make space. Well, problem solved, but it is a bit of a pain in the ass. Still, I feel like the price I'm paying for convenience on those little things is a little steep. Too steep for my liking, anyway!

I wore jeans today, again.

So, first day of work was black pants black polo. Second day was blue jeans and white shirt. Third day was blue jeans and black polo. Wanna guess what tomorrow's fit is gonna be?! You get 1 try.

I feel tired, but satisfied.

Today, I was almost late for work. Well, I say this, but objectively there wouldn't be a problem even if I was a little late for work... Still, it's a matter of principle. I don't want lateness to turn into a habit.

Regardless, the work itself was actually OK. It was a lot of just typing and reading, but I think that's fun. I got to discuss things with my coworker quite a lot, and it's fun to talk to her and discuss our stuff. I also got to talk to another coworker at lunch and it was fun. Cool guy.

Overall, a good day. I got to ride my bike, I'll still take my usual walk. I wore jeans! Long time no jeans...

I'm gonna go buy some veggies right about now, I think.

I hope my days stay pleasant.

Today was my first day at my new job.

I was nervous and excited, and ended up getting a fair share of exciting things and disappointment.

My coworkers are great! They're nice and kind, they're talkative but not intrusive, and clearly intelligent. That feels good. I love being around people that can tell me things I don't know, that know things I don't know, and that I can learn from. Especially considering we're a startup, it's good to see we have some competent brains working. My boss, however, seems to be more of a nut case than I thought... I say this not just because of his somewhat erratic behaviour through our many calls throughout the day, but because of the things that were just dumped on me out of nowhere, considering I very much should've been told! Also, my other coworkers, the ones that have been there since before, don't like him very much. He's a decent guy, by all estimates, but he's not really a professional, and not much of a leader. A shame, but oh well.

I'll just put my head down and get work done. Whatever's asked of me, I shall deliver! Unless it's too much, in which case I won't.

One of my coworkers is very cute. Always a bonus. I love freckles...

Also, I got to talk to my friend again today. It was nice, though we talked less and it didn't flow as well. I guess we just don't really have much to talk about. Well, whatever! It was nice, anyway. Even if we never speak again, it was nice that we got to speak at all.

I also made cheese and rice for tomorrow, and bought some apples (also for tomorrow).

The most unfortunate part of this day was that I was really tired when I got home. I didn't sleep much (my fault) and it was quite a stressful day, even if it had plenty of great parts too. Great things can be stressful, too. So, my workout wasn't very nice. More than that, it was my first ever leg day and I feel like I didn't really do it right. Some parts of it, sure, but it wasn't a very complete workout and my heart wasn't in it. I was just too tired, I think. I did get my protein in, tho I suspect I ate a little less than usual. I don't have a scale, and won't see a scale until Saturday, but I'm hoping I don't end up losing a bunch of weight this week. The cheese should help with that!

I'm excited for tomorrow, if a little nervous, anyway.

Oh, I went on a walk! Not too long, about as long as usual, I guess. It was nice.

I wore pants, today. Black ones, and a black polo. A little goth, I guess, but it was fine, I think. I felt comfortable, if a little cold. It was a cold day, today, for Summer.