crosswind
A lot of what you wrote sounded very familiar, and I was trying to put together some advice that I would want to give to myself when I was starting with my current therapist, but as I kept reading it sounds like you've picked up the changes in perspective and understanding I was going to recommend. So I don't have anything directly helpful to add, but it sounds like the work you're doing is getting somewhere. I've felt similarly frustrated to what you described, but looking back I'm happy with the progress I've made. That's just what it feels like a lot of the time, that is what it takes.
From the most recent shaun video, which keeps being applicable
... which turned their fake victory into a real defeat. They built this imaginary woke straw man that was trying to censor [thing] and then it won. So I'll claim that victory, then, on behalf of the woke mob. Well done everyone! We won that one and we didn't even have to do anything. Congratulations.
English said he left his phone at home in order to evade surveillance and that he had bought an atlas with cash a month earlier in order to find his way to D.C., the affidavit said. He also said he wore clothes that would conceal his appearance when purchasing the atlas, it said.
This is 100% a "I know what I'm doing, I saw it on TV" guy
I was hanging on to this idea where we were playing a game together, and we all put on a show of keeping up this strained, distant, fake relationship while we took time to heal and grow as people, until one day we would come together and share what we'd learned and build a real relationship. Now I'm realizing I was a fool who was playing that game by themself the whole time. 
Hurts, but I guess I can't really say all that personal growth was a waste.
I think I'm letting go of the idea that I'm going to have a good relationship with my parents someday. I've been starting to feel secure enough in other areas of my life that I think I can face that.
I had assumed I was going to see at least a flash of compassion this week, but it just hasn't been there. That really made me rethink the other assumptions I was making.
You can just say vomiting. Why did he need to make an announcement that he had the hiccups?
I will not be attending the Liberal Party meeting because of vomiting. Also, I have the hiccups. Also, I tried to rub my eye, but I poked it really hard. Also, I sneezed and a big booger was on my upper lip and by the time I noticed it had dried and when I pulled it off it hurt. Thank you. I'm Jair Bolsonaro