Update on the girl I'm kinda crushing on, I think I maybe messed up. I met her for coffee today, and at one point I was telling a story and she interjected just to tell me I'm very cute, so maybe that means she's interested in me too. But because I'm a loser I didn't know how to respond so I just looked down and smiled and kept yapping and now I'm worried that if she was flirting, she might think I'm disinterested or rude because I didn't reciprocate.
this is what's wrong with modern education
Pretty disheartening. I like to believe going through hardship makes people more prone to solidarity, but I know there are people who are exceptions to that
transphobia, transmeds
I don't often doomscroll through bigoted spaces any more, and when I do I think it's mostly just funny to see their unhinged takes, but I stumbled on a transmed forum today and that shit genuinely made me sad. It's infuriating that people who have 100% suffered from gender policing decides they're now going to start gender policing others. I hadn't really looked into transmed beliefs before and now I regret knowing these people exist.
But also, I can't imagine these people are very happy. Like, they're treating this idea of "opposite sex neurology" as if it's an unquestionably true scientific fact and rely on it to feel valid (i saw someone asking if they could get a brainscan to prove they're trans lol), while the actual scientific reality is that we don't know what causes people to be trans. And why does it even matter? If you need to transition to live a fulfilled and happy life, isn't that reason enough? Why is your internal sense of self not enough to make you valid.
Also wanted to claw my eyes out when people were posting "teens shouldn't get gender affirming care" and "going through female puberty has ruined me forever" right next to each other.
spoiler
Definitely relate to the feeling that romance and sex is so much more complicated than it would be if I was cis. Among friends I'm pretty open about being trans, so the fact that it would eventually have to come up doesn't bother me so much, but I'll probably always be too scared to use tinder or go with a random dude to his place after a night out.
middle aged
32
I'd forgotten, no wonder I felt extra rested this morning
I always asked what for the smallest they have in stock at the pharmacy. These ones were 26ga x 13mm, but more often it's 25ga x 16 mm.
I don't agree that literature or music have gotten in any way worse since the 2000s, but for big budget movies specifically it feels like everything is either a big board-room created franchis, or an adaption or a remake of someone else's creative idea.
It smelled just like the injection fluid does though
Subcutaneous, this one was in my thigh. Basically, I got sloppy with technique and had a ton more medicine leak back out than I've seen before.
That's super scary though, what if she meant it in a platonic way.