The one about content moderation: https://youtu.be/nf7XHR3EVHo
Playing single player with a jet pack, it can be hard to be aware of the scale that game objects are at.
My form of denial was thinking that I didn't really care about my body or my gender, so I might as well stay as a guy since I'm attracted to girls anyways. And then I didn't actually seek out any relationships with girls anyways. And I didn't pay any attention to my appearance as a guy.
So, in hindsight, I have never been okay with being a guy, I just dissociated.
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