MadgePickles

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[–] MadgePickles 6 points 2 years ago

Yes to stages!! If I try to do the thing immediately I will get lost in an inception of side quests. So I have tables in every room dedicated to "things that need to go in another place". Then when I'm going there, maybe I'll remember to grab one of them 😅

Yes to multiples of things in each room/my car!! Off the top of my head I can think of: phone chargers, cups of pens and scissors, fly swatter, fans, Chapstick, hair ties. If I have to move it, Ive lost it

[–] MadgePickles 1 points 2 years ago

I don't know why you want to fight about this

[–] MadgePickles 4 points 2 years ago (2 children)

Blue blood from a horseshoe crab yes. Blue crabs are also a thing and horseshoe crabs are always referred to with the word horseshoe in front. So calling them just crabs with the word blue in front is a poor choice if one cares about communication.

[–] MadgePickles 7 points 2 years ago (5 children)

Horseshoe crabs not blue crabs

[–] MadgePickles 2 points 2 years ago (1 children)

Yeah like have some self-reflection jeez, go to therapy for your anxiety, I dunno, but don't project your anxiety onto your employees in a disciplinary manner for God's sake.

[–] MadgePickles 1 points 2 years ago (1 children)

Where do you keep them? How do you ensure you put them away on the proper place?

[–] MadgePickles 1 points 2 years ago

I've been fermenting a thought about this topic recently that I want to get others comments on.

It has to do with late-diagnosed autistic folks coping with living in a NT world so that even when we encounter other autistic folks we don't trust that they are actually speaking literally. Like even after having conversations with them about this subject.

I have two close relationships where I struggle with this where they are so anxiety-ridden from over 30 years of coping mechanisms that we are constantly having communication struggles from them worrying about and even inserting hidden deeper meanings into my literal speech. Even after months and years of friendship and many conversations about how I am literally always saying exactly what I mean.

It's like they've both coping mechanismed themselves into permanent anxiety about the secret hidden meanings that NT insert into speech that their brains are traumatized and they can't turn it off.

Does anyone else relate to either side of that?

[–] MadgePickles 2 points 2 years ago (3 children)

Can you talk about the process of you remembering to put the bracelets on? How does that work?

[–] MadgePickles 3 points 2 years ago (2 children)

Totally. What do you think we should call it?

[–] MadgePickles 3 points 2 years ago
[–] MadgePickles 15 points 2 years ago (2 children)

Since realizing I'm autistic I have had a few big areas of skill regression that have really concerned me. Mainly sensory sensitivity leading to overstimulation, and just total exhaustion after any kind of social activity leading to a deep sense of need to be alone for a long time, like many many days in order to recover.

I think about this a lot about what it means because I used to mask everything so much that I could go all school semester passing as a normal human, just quirky. Then during break I would get sick and fall apart like my body was just waiting for permission to take a break.

Summers were always a time of much deeper depression and I think about it now as burnout. But I always pulled myself back together to perform the requisite behaviors.

Now I have given myself permission to give myself accommodations with regards to sensory overload and recovery after socializing, I recognize it better and understand more what I'm feeling. But that makes it seem like it's there * more *

 

I've had this question in my brain for weeks and I don't know where to put it. I guess I chose here because maybe someone else has had this same question and found answers. Maybe it's a stupid question actually.

But what is it like to be Neurotypical?

I am not confident I have known a single Neurotypical person, at least not well. They are apparently the vast majority of people, but I think everyone I've ever been close to was ND. As a late diagnosed AuDHD person, I find myself now analyzing every human I interact with trying to figure out how they are different than me, or how they are similar. I feel like I see the ghost of Neurodivergence in everyone and can't recognize neurotypicality when I see it.

What are the signs and symptoms of neurotypicality?

 

Reading is hard. I often want articles and PDFs for work to be read aloud while I'm doing something else. Anyone have any Android apps for this?

 

I'm feeling really excited and hopeful and nervous. I found an awesome doctor who is not part of some huge corporate medical conglomerate, is LGBTIQ+ safe and is relatively knowledgeable and accepting of Neurodivergence! I could cry. Only an hour away from me (lolsob) but is open to telehealth if a physical exam is not necessary.

When I asked if he was familiar with Guanfacine he said yes all casually(!). I forgot to pick it up on my way home so I'm going to wait and take it tonight. I'm nervous but I've been trying to get this for months now so I'm just really hopeful it can help me.

For those unfamiliar, Guanfacine was originally developed in the 80s as a blood pressure medication but is approved by the FDA to supplement stimulant medication in support of ADHD. It was found to help with anxiety, RSD, irritability/anger and insomnia. Even inattention and impulsivity. Common side effects are sleepiness/fatigue, headaches, dry mouth, but generally get better as you get used to the medication.

It will take several weeks to fully build up and feel the full effects, so I'll edit this post with the results in the coming weeks.

 

I'm paying for the low deductible insurance at my company (higher cost, supposed to be better benefits). I made an appointment for diagnostic assessment at the beginning of the year, their next available appointment was SEPTEMBER 30. They called me yesterday with the estimated cost to me after insurance (I mean nice that they do that but you'll see why...) It's going to cost me $800.

Yeah ok. Guess I'll just remain self-diagnosed.

 

I'm paying for the low deductible insurance at my company (higher cost, supposed to be better benefits). I made an appointment for diagnostic assessment at the beginning of the year, their next available appointment was SEPTEMBER 30. They called me yesterday with the estimated cost to me after insurance (I mean nice that they do that but you'll see why...) It's going to cost me $800.

Yeah ok. Guess I'll just remain self-diagnosed.

 

My lofi isn't cutting it today, but my podcast is pulling too much of my attention so I can't think on my work. I need that sweet spot of interesting enough to quiet my mind but boring enough that I can ignore it and think on my work. Gonna look for a history documentary on Carthage or smth

 

I need to eat something or there will be Consequences™ but the Good Foods© are now Bad. 😭 Safe food limbo is my deepest fear

 
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