[venting] AHHH IM CRUSHING SO HARD ON THIS GIRL AND IM MOVING FAR AWAY VERY SOON!!! I feel this like incredible sense of loss because I really feel like we could have been so amazing together…. But I’m also in an open relationship and yeah idk I am feeling so goddamn confused and torn apart. Trying to figure out the open thing but yeah idk I’ve been crushing on this girl for a year or so… I don’t know if it would ever work out or if she feels the same about me…
idk if I should say anything or what. I really want to but I feel like my brain is clouded by emotions and it might make her uncomfortable…. But I’ve also used that reasoning to basically avoid telling anyone anything about my feelings for my whole life. Idk.
Vegas is fun and all but now it’s like super expensive to go. It used to be that it was cheap and then you spend all the money on gambling. Now is ridiculously expensive and then you have no gambling money