-Emma-

I had to contain my laughter so hard it hurt. The censorship just made it even better. Also definitely a mood I'm not unfamiliar with.

lol I'm glad you liked it 😁️ Part of the inspiration for it came from an uncensored reddit meme (the template was the two paths, each leading to either light side or dark side). The stuff on reddit can get wild. Or it could. I don't browse there anymore, since the events of last year.

And I actually did originally make the meme uncensored, but then I figured that it was... a bit much, at least to share publicly. I don't want people to feel that I'm pushing sexual stuff on them, and I don't want kids to come across it. So that's why I made the censored version.

The big issue is actually finding them when you're not ready to commit to something like going to local support groups.

At this point, I would actually attend such a group get-together, if there were any around here. I'm in a deep red state in the US, and the nearest blue city has a group that only meets online using facebook and zoom. Absolutely ridiculous, and a deal breaker for me. The nearest physical meetups are like 2 or 3 hours away. And I think they make everyone sign up through facebook. Like, I absolutely understand the need to vet new people for the safety of everyone, but facebook? Really? Super frustrating.

So sorry to hear about your social circle breaking down. Sounds like it is for the best though

Thanks. Yeah, it was definitely for the best to leave that life behind. I don't totally regret the addictions and experiences though. I mainly regret that I didn't move on sooner.

I'm tempted to go back to my local Unitarian Universalist church to see if my old friends still attend, but I kinda doubt they do. And I'm still super nervous about going out fully fem. I know that every single person at that church would accept me without question, but idk. I was gonna put a reason there but couldn't really think of anything other than "It'd be weird at first." which isn't a good reason. And now I'm rambling...

Okay...so you know the music video for this song:

That video was so emotionally raw and intense, and I was still a kid when I saw it. I somehow didn't know the video was about the invasion of Iraq after 9/11, or I forgot. I just totally lost myself in the story of the couple.

I felt deeply about the argument, confident that I knew and truly understood what he had done and why he'd done it, in a way that most people couldn't possibly understand.

Then as he got off the bus and the Sergent (or whatever) was yelling at him and the line of other guys, I started to get confused. When I saw the scene of all the guys getting their heads shaved one-by-one, it clicked in my head that what he'd done was sign up for the military to be shipped off to Iraq.

So what had I thought he'd done?

I had thought he'd submitted all the paperwork to have a sex change surgery and that she had found the confirmation letter indicating the scheduled date of surgery. And I had thought that "sex change surgery" meant having the genitals completely removed.

...yeah...

Can anyone relate? lol

Sometimes less is more. xD

I was gonna put more details there, but idk. I guess I felt weird detailing my sexuality (and sexual frustrations) on someone else's post when I had already expressed it in a meme. Not sure if you saw the meme though. I posted a censored version in the [email protected] and [email protected] communities.

Hypothetically, if you had unlimited options with infinite success rates, what kind of friends would you add to your social circle first?

I really want to have girl and trans girl friends irl. I want to be around fem people that can maybe help me with girl stuff like fashion, and trans girl stuff like passing. So in the hypothetical, I'd probably want trans girl friends first.

Also, I don't really have a social circle anymore. I have floated from/to different friend groups over the years. But I was severely addicted to drugs for a while, and those friends weren't the best. I cut ties to two out of three of the last "friends" some time before the pandemic. The last friend was and is a good person, but we drifted apart.

Would definitely offer you my friendship application! If you feel like chatting, DM me and I'll send you my matrix details.

Application approved! lol Since Mbin users can't currently DM Lemmy users, I sent you my matrix ID using my recently created lemmy.ca account.

• Social tolerance: it's... complicated? Irl I'm the type that starts out very reserved, but if I spend enough time with someone, something in my head clicks and then I never shut up when I'm with them.

Me too. I've also kinda gotten this way online a bit too. I share possibly too much about myself and my interests and probably get really annoying. But it takes me like a year of lurking before commenting or interacting at all. I wonder if there's a word to describe this...phenomenon/personality?

I read the title like the ad for OS1 in the movie Her:

Who are you? Where are you going?

You really need to see Her if you haven't yet. Like seriously.

Anyway, here's some stuff:

Gender identity

• Gender Spectrum: Feminine Trans Girl

Attraction to others

• Sexuality: Yes lol. Maybe bisexual? idk

• Romantic...ality?: idk...

Social traits

• Platonic affinity: I could use some girl friends irl, or just friends in general.

I get the suspicion that some of the more spirited discussions so far came with a tinge of suspicion that I'm one of the bad folks looking to invade spaces and sow discord,

Yeah, we generally have to have our guard up, especially in these types of threads. I don't know if you're familiar with the "just asking questions" type of transphobe, but it is a very real problem for communities like this one. The topic or phrasing of a question can raise red-flags for sure.

But I believe that you're being sincere.

Hey Ada, Mbin doesn't seem to support sending messages to Lemmy users yet, so I made an account on lemmy.ca to send you a message:

May I please have a registration token for Blahaj.zone matrix account?

❤️

(I made the account on old.lemmy.ca because it uses mlmym and doesn't require javascript - I'm weird, I know...)

Edit: Thanks! I've joined successfully. 🥳

(Also, I've been informed that Blahaj also supports mlmym: https://mlmym.lemmy.blahaj.zone)

For some of us yes, and for others no.

It's difficult for me to even imagine the complexities of such a world that lacks gender norms. Would there be fewer trans people? Possibly. But in such a world, there would still be trans people like me that feel a strong need for surgery.

Edit: Forgot to mention HRT, which many of us would still need.