chapotraphouse

completely annihilated mentally, it's either sick leave or psych hospital next week and I don't want the latter since the psych care blows here. it's just that I have no choice anymore, working CS keeps fucking with my mind to the core and I can't heal mentally, no skills so therefore no job prospects and unemployment (benefits? not sure since english isn't my first language) here is below the poverty line. stuck against the wall and no matter how much I act out or tell people I'm fucked, there's no result (not going to get too specific in order not to dox myself)

I suppose I'll pull through like I have been all these years but fuck I'm tired, the mental anguish never gets any easier

that being said, I'm glad for all my comrades who are doing well and hope that for those who are feeling low, that you'll feel better as soon as possible. sincerely