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In short: I relapsed a lot but I am focused on the positive of a new beginning

Today, I recommit myself to this process knowing that every time I fall I get back up again. Every time I fail I do not let it eat me up inside. No, I pray and thank God for giving me a new beginning. I thank this community for existing. It's been a grueling month and now that I am free, I choose to persevere through these familiar woods again.

I discovered the origin of the problem Not on my own but through a couple that treats different addictions They were incapie that the origin of the problem was a heteropatriarchal conditioning At first I thought it was nonsense but I let it go since I had tried everything with no results I went to church, self-help, cold showers... It was a long road but this is the first thing that really works It's not a day counter, it's that I am free

I spent almost a month before I relapsed. I am starting this new journey on NoFap in hopes of quitting completely. Thank you for understanding.

From now on, I’ve decided not to count the number of days or post updates here regularly. Every time I track my progress by counting days, I plant the thought of "Oh, I’ve been porn-free for X days," which keeps the idea of relapse alive in my mind. Over time, I’ve realized that whenever I focus on counting, I eventually relapse. So I asked myself: "What am I counting for?" Because constantly thinking about it means I'm still giving it space in my head.

To explainn what I mean, here’s an example: If I tell you to think of an elephant, then a monkey, then a coin, and then ask you to think of an elephant again, now, what if I tell you not to think of an elephant? You’ll probably still picture one. Why? Because I planted that thought in your head.

This is exactly what happens when we track our progress obsessively. We get fixated on the number instead of the real growth.

That being said, I’m not giving up on my Nofap journey, I’m just shifting my focus. I’ll keep going, and if I relapse, I’ll post about it. But from now on, I won’t let numbers define my progress.

This is day 1 again...

The end.

urges are stronger than ever!