sodium_nitride

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[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 16 points 4 hours ago (4 children)

America is under attack by two foreign Sociopathic Oligarchs

On the contrary, Trump is very loyal to the american empire's interests. His whole trade war gamble shows his greater vision. Forcing the entire world to renegotiate terms and get better deals for american monopoly capitalists.

until the real enemies are purged from our society

I wouldn't say that the bourgeoise should be purged, but tamed and abolished certainly. Well, we can have a little purging as a treat.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 7 points 5 hours ago

Thw article also states that US private contractors getting 5000 shekels per house that they blow up. Truly, the forces of capital have no low they will not sink to.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 1 points 10 hours ago (1 children)

My little brother is too lonely. I have to be there for him. He isn't doing well. I'll handle the situation until next summer, by which time I will probably come out.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 12 points 12 hours ago

Literally just saw a sign in my uni that says "it helps others if you are open about who you are".

This can't be a coincidence. My data is being tracked.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 2 points 12 hours ago

Would it be possible to just lie to them about its purpose

Maybe. I think I could lie to them and tell them the doctor recomended me to inject these. I could lie about some disease idk.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 5 points 1 day ago (2 children)

an easier way, either just coming out or not visiting them.

T_T neither of those things are easier.

Where are you even gonna get a shovel from? "Oh hey dad can I get in the shed, I need to borrow a shovel to do something not suspicious in the woods"

Stop poking holes in my genuis plan angery. I'll buy my own mini shovel if I have to. I'll even use a spoon if necessary.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 2 points 1 day ago (1 children)

but as for your HRT supplies, is the privacy situation really so bad you can't just put it in a drawer?

Putting it in a drawer would be practically equivalent to just me going up to them and telling them to their face.

putting it out in the wilderness seems unsanitary, and like too big of a hassle.

The hassle is not an issue, but the sanitation aspect I suppose is. As far as I'm thinking, placing my vial, syringes and swipes wrapped into cloth inside a metal box should be sufficient to protect them. Buy if that's not enough, I'm not sure what would be, other than maybe a rented locker (but that runs into issues of stealing and time limits).

you could also put it in a cardboard box for something else nobody would think to check, like a shoebox or a box for an old console or something

If I showed up with a cardboard box, it would arouse even more curiosity.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 10 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (2 children)

You jest but I learnt well how to lie to and hide things from my parents in my youth. I did mostly do so to hide my secret pokemon cards collection, but also to uh, hide my "teenage urge events", my internet history, my feelings, my friendships, what I was doing and so on.

In hindsight I should have cultivated a better relationship with my parents.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 4 points 1 day ago* (last edited 1 day ago) (1 children)

Are you thinking like, japanese sarashi?

100% what I'm thinking. Amazon however shows this as cheesecloth. Is that the same thing???

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 6 points 1 day ago (1 children)

When you mention bandages, are you talking about using KT tape? It seems like that works pretty well, although I haven't tried it personally.

No, I am using ones with no adhesives

There are also compression undershirts for cis men with gynecomastia

I didn't know about these. They might be useful. I'll try. Certainly way easier to explain these.

Another consideration is, do you actually have to go visit your parents, or do you just feel obligated to?

I was asked this last time by comrades here. I'm not exactly sure how to explain it, but not going isn't really an option. It's partly a cultural thing. And also partly that I've booked all sorts of tickets already.

For how long will you be visiting them? If you're going to be there for multiple weeks, pre-preparing syringes probably isn't a viable plan.

For opsec reasons (i have already leaked too much information), I'm not going to answer this, but I will keep it in mind.

 

Uh, so as the title says, I want to use cotton fabric rolls as a way to compress down my breasts as a way to hide their growths from my parents (whom i have to visit soon). I tried buying binders made for transmascs, however, I didn't find an option that fit my ribcage (which I am finding out is actually really large). Then, with the wrap, I can wear 2 layers of shirt (I'll claim it's a fashion thing) on top of that. I'm not quite sure how well it will work.

Alternatively, I also now have 4 sports bras with removal pads. The problem with the sports bras is that while I can easily explain bringing along rolls of Bandages, bringing along bras would wierd them out a lot and raise questions. Idk how to hide any bras I bring along, since my mom always goes through my stuff.

I'm also really not sure how I am supposed to hide my hormone supplies. What I've come up with so far is to pre-prepare supplies, put them in a padded metal box. Then once I get to my parents, I bury them in the ground somewhere in whatever woods they have nearby. I can then go there whenever I want, do the hormones in secret. The only problem I can think of is how to handle transporting the injections. Should I bring along the vial, or should I pre-prepare shots?

The more I type shit out, the more I'm thinking to myself what kind of spy bullshit am I even trying to do. Instead of coming out the closet, I'm doing this nonsense.

Sometimes I forget that Americans actually just have guns.

[–] sodium_nitride@hexbear.net 15 points 1 day ago

So it's just a waiting game then. Iran doesn't have to protect the site while they can build a bomb using material from other sites. Once/if they get their airspace fully defended, they can then excavate fordow.

At least I presume that's the optimistic timeline. The US/Israel might decide to attack while trying to lull the Iranians into a false sense of security. But they will only do so once they've replenished Israel's interceptors.

 

I saw this graph be posted around on reddit (the graphics definately look like they are from the zionist rag). I don't know which attack piece it was pulled out of though.

I'll be honest, I'm not sure what exactly is happening here, cause I didn't follow the election at all. However, I doubt that primaries are all too representative of the broader state of public opinion in NYC.

According to a quick Google search on Wikipedia, the primary had about 1 million votes, while the population of the 5 boroughs of NYC is almost 9 million.

In theory, a sample size of 1 million is more than enough to make a good statistical comparison, however, personally who votes in democrat primary is a self-selecting category.

Despite this, I am seeing the rather typical accusations levied against mamdani about champagne socialism or whatever (by the same people who don't mind killing the poor and third worlders, but I digress).

One commenter went as far as to proclaim that "there is no more proletariat in America. American labor has achieved the end of history. The cops no longer break their strikes. They all have good union jobs and desire cultural security instead of freebies. Ideology is the luxury of the wealthy".

Of course, the important possible explanations are left out

  1. Mamdani is a new guy with no name recognition. His campaign might simply have not reached low income voters who don't keep up with politics.
  2. A lag of 13 points still means that he has a significant base amongst the lowest income voters.
  3. Most households making between 50,000 and 100,000 in New York are, as far as I know, still working class and not bourgeois. "Working class" has an objective meaning. In fact, even a sole trader petite bourgeois is working class (since proletariat =/= working class, someone who does not own private property).
 

Post link for anyone who cares

Looking at these liberals just confidently parrot whatever 10th grade "political science" education they got in school in response to any global event makes me appreciate the actual bourgeois intellectuals who have to hard carry these idiots.

 

This is like, the weirdest thing ever imo. I feel more girlish when warm and more boyish when cold. The only similar thing I can think of is how some marine animals' eggs change their gender when exposed to different temperatures.

Initially when taking hormones, I called myself non-binary precisely because of this, although I changed my pronouns to she/her afterwards because I thought I "wasn't committing" (no shade to enbies or gender fluid folk, this was purely about my own anxieties). But even after my anxiety has calmed down greatly, I still feel the same phenomena. I think it might be linked to stress (I'm very stressed right now), but the pattern I have noticed over like, 12 weeks now, really stands out to me.

I hope I'm severely misinterpreting something, because I don't want to be dissected by scientists trying to figure out whatever new X-men mutant powers I am developing.

Does anybody have even slightly similar experiences? Am I actually just NB or gender fluid (I think I might be)?

 

I can't for the life of me figure out where I got this old ass image from, but I find it intensely funny as a philosophical amoralist. Hell, it's funny from a vegan perspective, or even from a "this reads like satire" perspective.

"It's a trespasser so I killed it", "the rodent was a thief so I gave it the death penalty", "You are a psychopath for questing the arbitrariness of conventional moral standards".

Best part is, according to the metadata of this screenshot, I took this screenshot on some post titled the biggest flaw of my hero academia, which raises more questions than it answers.

 

https://www.ni.com/nl-nl/shop/product/multisim.html

^^^^^

The above worthless trash known as "multisim", used for simulating circuits costs 905 EUR and

  1. Doesn't have a linux version
  2. Is missing 90% of new commercially available parts
  3. Doesn't have a method of easily adding those parts (except manually, 1 by 1) (as far as I know)
  4. Has garbage UI (you can only undo 4 times) (adding or removing a single component can easily use up more than 4 moves)
  5. Inconsistent simulations (making the sims work feels like trying to appease a capricious God to not curse you with famine)

The free open source software (qucs-studio) seems to have none of these problems, though I have barely used it.

 

I made a math error and I realised I am overdosing. Or at least, burning through my supplies faster than needed.

This will go down as one of the most shameful mistakes of my entire life. I have brought dishonor upon the whole of Asia.

I was supposed to take 0.13 ml per 10 days (lower end of recomended supply). I wanted to do weekly injections. So I decided to multiply by 10/7 to adjust and get a weekly dose, yielding about 0.18 ml per week.

Except to get a weekly dose I should have multiplied by 7/10. In hindsight, I can't believe I made a mistake this dumb and potentially risky.

So, uh, I guess I'll just take 0.18 ml per 10 days (upper end of recomended supply). This will save me supplies, and also I hate giving myself injections. I definitely want to make sure all my testosterone is suppressed cause otherwise I will feel like shit. So I'll still remain at the upper level.

But then again, I am not sure if slightly lowering my dose like this will cause mood swings. I'm not actually even that sure that I really am overdosing because I weigh more than average. I'll just try a 10 day schedule for a while and see what happens.

For anyone who followed my previous post about hair, this isn't related to that (it's just a coincidence). I am not lowering my dose to appease my mom or anything.

 

We had a lunch lecture where this environmental scientist gave a talk about critical materials and how big of a problem our reliance on these are. He links the whole thing up with politics pretty well, explaining how various political actors are involved and benefit from this or that.

At some point, he even mentions how in the netherlands, policy doesn't get passed without a buy-in from industry. It means quite a lot, cause this guy is government hired in recommending policies.

Then he contradicts himself in the next paragraph by saying that this is the curse of democracy that people make stupid decisions.

I ask this guy about the contradiction. How you simultaneously harp about profits over needs, the evils of consultancy firms, and the inability of the Dutch government to do anything but pursue corporate interests, while also talking about the problems of "democracy"?

He just tells me "we are a democracy that's why the Dutch government listens to industry". Well not exactly that, but at least that's the message I get when he talks about all the corporate controlled parties winning the elections and how that's what the people chose.

Dude is this close to realising that the definition of liberal democracy is "legitimised rule by corporations" .

Of course, the lecture ends with a book recommendation for a book about the collapse of human civilisation. And a recommendation to go vote and participate in political parties.

Unlimited death upon elections.

 

It's over bros/siss/xes

I boiled the pasta, and instead of draining the water, I accidentally added the tomato sauce into the water with the pasta. My pasta is now soup.

The only saving grace is that I usually undercook my pasta and eat it crunchy. So I can still reduce the "soup" a bit before it becomes overcooked.

I just tasted the pasta. I added salt to it which was a mistake because the sauce I bought also has salt in it. I now am beginning to understand how that "if I cook even the simplest of food I will somehow fuck it up and poison everybody" gag in anime works.

 

Hair is being a problem for me. Facial hair, I don't like shaving (painful) (bloody). Not shaving it also sucks (prickly little growths) (spiky). Trimming isn't really sufficient.

Also, chest hair is being an issue. I don't want to try to shave it (that would be another level of hell). Trimming also leaves behind spiky hair that stings.

Hair growth on my head is going nicely. I like it. Then I think about how I will need to go to my parents during the summer and I don't want them to know about my situation so I am going to have to keep my hair relatively short thonk-cri.

I've also started thinking that I should lower the dose of my hormones to slow down feminization. At this rate, I won't be able to hide my chest growths even with a breast binder. My parents want me to be over for basically the entire summer and I don't have a good excuse to not go. How am I to live with them in the same house while still hiding my feminization? doggirl-gloom.

 

I think the title is pretty self-descriptive. I love me some platonic ideals. They are so cute and cuddly catgirl-heart. I don't mind getting impaled by the octahedron kumagawa-jokerfied. I love it unconditionally. And the dodecahedron? It can get it panting.

There's even more platonic ideals I love. I love those platonic ideals where we assume some kind of context-less vacuum existence of things then debate about them. I love when we use this contexless category to lump things together and refer to the bundle as a single word. This is very helpful for not causing confusion. I was able to handle complexity when I had a BOY brain. But HRT has given me a GIRL brain. Even better, I love talking about good or bad. It makes me feel warm and cozy inside to smite my EVIL enemies.

No, this post isn't made in context of ANYTHING. This post is a platonic ideal!

 

I swear to God this woman is basically "western fascist chauvinism packaged in a sleek wrapper".

Peak coloniser brain. The only ones they show respect for is other colonisers. I wouldn't be surprised to see if she had produced some video or the other using (metaphorical) calipers to make (metaphorical) skull measurements of the incurable Arabs and why they deserved to be genocided by the superior aryan white settlers.

I find this shit even more disgusting just how comically wrong all this shit is. You don't have to dig up obscure facts! It is the Americans who systematically obliterated the public institutions in Iraq and Afghanistan in the first place! Shit is common knowledge for anyone who literally bothered to read news articles of the wars, forget doing actual research!

If the liberals are really so concerned about Afghanistan, could they try to not steal Afghanistan's foreign reserves and try to intentionally create a famine there?

Truly, these people gorge themselves upon the rancid dumpster of ideology.

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