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it looks blurry because we're just that exhausted

alone and in silence being the key part of this, after having input shoved thru my brain by other 🦍s for the last seven years whether I had any desire for it or not

Yes! My hearing separates all the sound-streams and places them in 3D space at all times and I can never turn it off, yet I can't cope when there's music + TV on at the same time or too many speech streams. People who leave the TV on and then put music on absolutely boggle my mind, it's so unpleasant

Also, I suspect one could go round and round all day on whether or not this is "social anxiety" but at the end, I'd hope a good therapist would be able to take this info at the kernel of "why" and develop useful techniques to work around it. So far I have no luck, but I've only gone thru .. uhh... 2 shrinks since I realized this, and one was a terrified intern.

I'm curious if you have basically no ability to filter out nearby human stimuli like me.

Now that I started digging into this I realized that I also get easily mesmerized by televisions and the like, more so when I was a kid but still occasionally as an adult.

The reason bullet journaling can work so well for ADHD/ExecDys types who take to it, is because bullet journaling is a structure of interlocking habits with an element of ritual to it, while "remember to look at the important list crumpled in my back pocket" is not.

The really fucked up situation is when you're stuck in this mode to the point of severe burnout because of your environment which you cannot escape in any reasonable amount of time.

It certainly can, though I think there's a low level which I can tolerate for a long time if not already burned out ... assuming I ever get to that state again...

Had to crosspost this one (I'm not OP) because this has literally been destroying my life for 7 years, I'm unemployed and technically homeless (couchsurfing) because of it 🥲

Couldn't really say for sure, I'm still recovering from my nth case of covid being unexpectedly far worse than all cases before it, and realizing that the friends I'm staying with aren't reeeeeally my friends, and nearly every surviving member of my biological family (which isn't many) is some sort of confirmed scumbag, so if I get really sick I'm up shit's creek without a paddle, no one will take care of me and nobody gives a fuck 🤷

I'm easily mesmerized by televisions and have been my entire life!

so many people with executive dysfunction have come to this realization thru memes ❤️

I would add: beyond executive dysfunction, people who also have low intrinsic motivation (ability to "just do it") and/or difficulty initiating, are also not bad people!

while it is our responsibility to always work on and improve our weak points, these aspects of temperament exist as they are, no matter how much moralizing busybodies insist otherwise.