more goblins and gremlins please 
magi
joined 2 years ago
trauma/dissociation
I think mine was to escape my reality but now it is automatic it is so engrained. I have noticed some flare up recently but I am unaware of a trigger and I know I also have issues with my monotropism being so strong theres a bit of overlap. I have been having small auto pilot moments recently and put that down to forgetfulness forgetting about dissociation completely but I was thinking through all the recent things hence my earlier post and I feel shaken with that realisation.it often feels like my ‘body mind’ and my ‘conscious mind’ work on mostly parallel tracks, where sometimes they do not align, if that makes sense?
makes perfect sense to me c:
trauma dissociation
I haven't met many people like I have had very heavy dissociation for 30 years and no friends or family to talk about it. I can't remember some years or when family members passed away, like when that happened just know it happened. Today was a realisation that I'm still doing it to some degree that it is still a thing.. not quite missing years but can lose myself for periods and I operate on auto pilot almost every day in some fashion.I tend to avoid drugs and don't drink alcohol so this is still trauma I'm carrying I think.
A few months ago, I had a horrifying experience
I'm sorry that happened, I know I've probably been out and about and not been aware of it happening but it is scary when you have put things in places and can't remember, I have been doing that a lot recently.
dissociation
I dissociate all the time, I have days where I find things in the cupboard and don't remember putting things in the wrong place and have no memory of placing things in places, or forget where I set things down. I've said about doing something and I had just did it, or memory hole hours, depends some days it's minor other days it can be upsetting. I have years I lost and can't tell what year memories come from unless it's something external to remember that year. I have huge holes going all the way back to being a kid, I have done it all my life, one of my earliest memories is being asked if I'm daydreaming again.
is rife for that
Trends are just that, they are also there to sell products but they are usually on a loose cyclical rotation in so far as it will come back in another trend at some point. But those styles are always around, very few things that disappear completely. The amount of people that follow the trends are also few in comparison to those who don't. Social media and such makes it feel more than it is also. I don't follow trends and wear anything I feel like regardless. And that post you mention is correct subverting trends is fun. I always ask why would I want to look like everyone else? lol
spoiler
Yeah I was mixing it up with that, I thought I was done with the big long periods of it, bit of a shock realising that I'm still doing it. I worry about it a lot too :/