i'm not wild about the implicit comparison to a literal alien, but it's also... fine. it feels a bit othering in the kind of way like, the owner wishes political dialogue wasn't constantly about trans people (... which i agree with!) i think they're probably not transphobic, but i would also hazard a guess they don't really Get It, either
drawing is a wonderful skill that allows you to express ideas in a way that words simply cannot
it really helped me a lot to express the sort of things i was going through when i was depressed. it helped because i could express the feelings without explaining the situation or having to put it in words
do you have friends that would be supportive of your drawings? if you don't, you could even post them online or here. but i think having a place to show your art and get feedback helps a lot (ofc, if you want to keep your art to yourself, that's perfectly okay too)
https://drawabox.com/ if you want to give it a try
check out monster hunter (world/rise/wilds) and hop on bow, light bowgun, or heavy bowgun. expect a steep learning curve, but it shouldn't be bad if you're used to soulslikes, monhun is just precious with iframes, so it's a lot tighter to iframes through moves than it is in a typical souls/like
if you pick it up and end up needing a hand, hit me up! always happy to teach people how to hunt
idk if i could say this is surprisingly easy or even really easy at all. this has actually been one of the most difficult things i've worked towards accomplishing during my life
at least, this has been really difficult for me online; i think it's much easier in person to not be a dick lol
but if it's hard for me online, maybe it's hard for folks in-person, too
quick check on your basics. sleep, hydration, food, hygiene. make sure they're square
if you're good on that front, get a good exercise session in (or work up to it, do a little bit of exercise over the next few days and build up your tolerance)
do something nice for yourself, something that preferably has a sensory component. have a nice meal with good smells and textures, or a warm bubble bath, or wash your blankets and curl up in them, or throw some ASMR on, or... you know, whatever does it for ya
go for a walk when the weather isn't too hot
good easy ways to pull yourself out of a slight dip. kinda been there myself, this the type of shit i been doing, too