confusedpuppy

Being forced to read between the lines because other people are afraid of being honest with themselves is exhausting, frustrating and confusing.

Often that dishonesty comes in the form of manipulation. They want me to continue treating them the way that I do while offering nothing in return except to tear me down for treating everyone else the same way I treat them.

At least that's my perspective from my experiences.

The only people I want to be around these days are those that can embrace being honest with themselves and the people they surround themselves with. I no longer tolerate being forced to read subtle cues that conflict with what they say and do.

One of the many reasons I quit the trades so dramatically was because I couldn't stand all the unasked advice coming from older men.

If I wanted to be old, miserable, full of hate for my wife and children, full of hate at other people for expressing themselves, full of hate for myself and own a giant savings account full of money I can't enjoy because my body is too broken, then sure I'll listen to what you will say. But I don't want that. I want to be happy with all the nothing I own.

I even went and tattooed both my arms full just to signal that I am dedicated to my mistakes. I'd rather be broke and myself than to live the shallow, object filled existence that they want to live. Where these old miserable men see mistakes, I see experiences and the chance to learn.

Fuck 'em.

I was burying veggie scraps under the snow and leaves during the winter so it likely came from that, but I'll keep that in mind when it comes time to harvest them :)

I didn't add compost to this garden bed this year. I did throw all the household's veggie scraps into that bed during the winter so it likely came from there.

My new compost pile is even lazier this summer as I just throw layers of veggie scraps with layers of greens from my garden cuttings. I'm pretty sure there's more seeds in that pile somewhere.

Whatever happens, happens. Surprises are fun :)

Awesome, I had terrible luck starting seeds this year. At least I have something to harvest this year other than cucumbers, tomatoes and red mustard leaves.

My chaos garden is full of surprises this year

Ah, it sounds similar to how I want to set up my headerless Raspberry Pi 5. I've been slowly learning tmux as well but it's nice to have detached sessions. I'll eventually add WeeChat as a sort of IRC bouncer for myself.

Right now it's just hosting a simple file server and a copy of Wikipedia. I've also been looking at BashWrite and Bash Static Site Generator as a simple command line blog to host for myself.

I quite enjoy the text only work environment. It's far less distracting :)

Sounds good, I'll check them out and see where I go from there :)

Yeah I don't see any huge advantage in using a terminal browser over a full featured browser. However, I did notice that I don't have to hide all those popup questions when I go to certain websites with troubleshooting questions.

Sometimes I just desire the reading the text without all the visual distractions that is present in our modern internet experience.

What was your experience with a terminal based linux setup? I imagine it as something extremely lightweight at the cost of convenience.

That sounds interesting. It sounds like it's modular so can be built around extensions?

I've been using nano as my editor but I feel like I'm getting to the point where I might benefit from something a little more powerful.

I'll download it later and see about learning the shortcuts at first. I have a couple other things I'm focused on right now before I get deep into learning and customizing emacs.

Having mutliple purposes in one program does seem convenient and something I would probably enjoy.

I haven't actually tried anything involving emacs yet. I'm a bit intimidated to learn something new when I'm already focused on other things at the moment.

There's only so many hours in the day to go down so many rabbit holes.

I can at least have a look at it, thanks for the suggestion.

I once saw a pickup truck drive into the shoulder of a road to intentionally murder a mother duck and her babies that were just standing there.

I'm not questioning if what she did was right or wrong but I get it. I fucking get why she did what she did.

I currently only use Busybox-Ash which comes with Alpine Linux. I've used Bash in Mint before but the only difference I've noticed between Ash and Bash is that Bash has completion.

I enjoy writing POSIX style scripts so I don't have too much motivation to switch it up.