confusedpuppy

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[–] confusedpuppy 4 points 5 days ago

Two weeks after my travel insurance ran out, I stepped on a baby brown snake and it didn't bite me.

In general, I'm not sure how I'm still alive and uninjured but here I am persisting much to the annoyance of somebody out there.

[–] confusedpuppy 5 points 5 days ago

There's some significant family history that can explain why my mom is overprotective of me as her baby boy so I can understand why she acts the way she does.

I just happened to turn out as an incredibly independent and self sufficient person which clashes hard with overprotective personalities.

I am also Autistic/ADHD and get overwhelmed easily and spend a lot of time on my own as well which plays a strong part in all of this too.

My mom being overprotective of me did play a big part in me taking off to travel and live abroad. I also think I would have naturally gone travelling given different circumstances and motivations. I just want to explore new places and experience new things.

[–] confusedpuppy 1 points 5 days ago* (last edited 5 days ago)

Ideally I would have a wing suit and I would do a loop de loop into the side of a mountain. I've been fortunate enough to have had the time to reflect on good memories in my life and I want to go out living purely in the moment.

But as with all plans I've ever made it life, it most likely will not happen. I'll go out in a completely unexpected and unplanned way. Probably in a ridiculous way too. Sadly it won't be a story I'll be able to share that time but that's just how it goes.

[–] confusedpuppy 16 points 5 days ago (2 children)

My mom is like this. She was very over protective of me when I was growing up. She made the mistake of telling me I couldn't travel alone and that eventually lead me to move to Australia for two years on a work/holiday visa.

I was told to check in near daily but I maybe called home once or twice a month and that still felt like pulling my own teeth.

My adhd wants to whatever random shit it wants to do and does not like to be interrupted.

I went to the other side of the planet and somehow it still wasn't far enough.

[–] confusedpuppy 4 points 5 days ago

I finally got Caddy's TLS working with a custom module to handle DNS challenges. Turns out all I had to do was wait 10-15 minutes and everything would sort itself out.

Now on to the next puzzle. I started with Caddy in a Docker container and it's working as intended. Now I want to replicate that in Rootful Podman Compose but I'm running into an issue. With the exact same setup (docker-compose.yml, Dockerfile and Caddyfile) I can get my TLS cert without issue but I can't seem to connect to my website from any external browser. Not through my domain name or even through my home's local network.

Once I figure out how I can access my website, I'll be one step closer to where I want to be. Next will be to get Rootless Podman working, then I can finally set up the file server and kiwix instance instead of the test page I am currently using.

After that, I can finally spend time doing what I want to do and focus my time looking into the Gemeni Protocol.

Down the road I'll look into hosting an IRC server and Snikket instant messenger but that's super low priority. I like tinkering with my Raspberry Pi and my constant backup/restores wouldn't be good for reliability for such services.

[–] confusedpuppy 8 points 5 days ago (2 children)

I don't need anyone to take care of me when I'm older. I decided that my retirement plan will be extreme sports. Base jumping? Wing suit? Steel toeing cops in the nuts? So many thrilling choices! Whatever happens, happens.

[–] confusedpuppy 4 points 5 days ago

My therapist sent me a link to some meet up type events that she thought I would be interested in going to so I could meet people.

When I got the email, I told myself I'd finish cooking, eat and buy the tickets for the board game night afterwards. Three hours later and I was disappointed to see the last tickets were gone and the event was now sold out.

The same event promoter had a halloween party so I booked a ticket for that instead.

I went to the party and had a great time. At the end of the night as everyone was leaving, I heard someone who I never saw that night loudly say "I'm going to see Enter Shikari next week!" I was a bit in shock but I told her I also had tickets to see the same band next week too. We talked for 5 minutes and exchanged numbers before parting ways that night.

It's been nearly a year since that night and we are now super close friends. There's so much love and understanding between the both of us. When we hang out, there's so much talking, hugs, kisses and cuddles and I feel so lucky to have met her. Plus I get to meet a these amazing and unique people through her, her partner and her friends which I'm also super thankful for as well.

I was super disappointed to miss the board game night but the Halloween party was where the magic all happened :)

[–] confusedpuppy 2 points 6 days ago

I sat down and managed to get wildcard certs working.

I figured I would leave my Caddyfile here in case anyone in the future needs a working reference. This is based off the Caddyfile mentioned in the original post.

Caddy Reference

Caddyfile

# GLOBAL ENCRYPTION - DESEC.IO
{
        acme_dns desec {
                token "DeSEC.io Token Number"
        }
}

*.samplesite.ca {
        # SITE WIDE ENCRYPTION
        tls {
                dns desec {
                        token "DeSEC.io Token Number"
                }
        }
        # SUB DOMAIN #1
        @files host files.samplesite.ca
        handle @files {
                root * /srv
                file_server {
                        hide misc
                        browse
                }
        }
        # FALLBACK FOR UNHANDLED DOMAINS
        handle {
                abort
        }
}

[–] confusedpuppy 2 points 6 days ago

I finally figured out a major technical issue and am one step closer to self hosting my own blog. It won't anything big or something that will be shared. Just a place for me to write stuff into the void.

Plus I can use this time to recover from my cold so I can be healthy for the music festival with my friends I'm going to next weekend :)

[–] confusedpuppy 2 points 1 week ago

Thanks for sharing that.

It's nice to get extra context, it helps me understand how I can protect my devices and myself a bit better as I learn more about self hosting.

[–] confusedpuppy 7 points 1 week ago

Let me address men directly: this is our problem and our responsibility. We need to find a way out of this, and I think that starts with separating masculinity from “domination”. For too many men, domination is where masculinity is grounded. Dominating conversations online and offline, dominating the physical space around them, dominating women (“Your body, my choice,” Nick Fuentes tweeted after Donald Trump’s second election victory). An identity formed around domination was always going to damage men, because it is fundamentally at odds with community. I think community is what whole swathes of alienated westerners are really yearning for deep down.

I'm in agreement. The way men choose to express themselves today, especially in North America, is so dangerous and destructive to everyone around them. Or as this article says, the community around them. As we are witnessing, it doesn't take much to push that mindset of domination into real physical violence.

An issue with mental health that I've seen over the past five years is that you can't help people who refuse to help themselves first. Forcing your help with someone elses mental health leads to a push back. If someone is struggling and is angry, I'm likely to make them more angry by bringing up the topic or trying to push them into a healthier direction.

On the opposite side, if a person is willing to address issues and accept help, I will see improvement at an impressive rate of change. The choice to help themselves first had such a dramatic and positive result.

It may be hard to hear but men need to take responsibility when it comes to improving themselves. The burden to improve should not fall on other people. People have limited energy and still need to care for themselves first.

If men want to see a world where they are truly happy, they will have to take the first steps. It's uncomfortable and painful. Dealing with mental health is uncomfortable and painful. But if they are willing to do that, then a change towards a happier and healthier self and community is possible.

How? Unfortunately I don't have an answer for that question. We need more men willing to step up and begin that conversation.

[–] confusedpuppy 1 points 1 week ago (2 children)

Oh no, I was just about to move forward and then you gave me another rabbit hole.

I didn't know Let's Encrypt had a public database, that does sound like a good idea to use wildcard certs instead.

I assume this is what I can use as a reference for wildcard certs.

How do you keep track of probing? I've been curious about that but haven't put much effort into that as I've been focused on getting things working.

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Robin Eggs :) (lemmy.dbzer0.com)
 
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Our yearly visitors (lemmy.dbzer0.com)
 

Every year the mourning doves come to claim my mothers planter on our backyard deck to make a nest. They even have some shelter overhead to protect themselves from rain and sun.

This year they took about 4 days to prepare their nest before the mother started staying full time.

They are all quite chill with us on the deck and will usually watch us for a bit until they relax. I'm sure my dad will slowly work up to being able to water the plants without the doves flying away but it's still too soon right now.

Looking forward to seeing the babies :)

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A dinner date (lemmy.dbzer0.com)
 
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Bonus claw

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A busy bunny (lemmy.dbzer0.com)
 
 

Terror cleared the skyline and anger clouded judgement, So they spent a thousand nighttimes in the desert fighting something, That they couldn’t find, that made it something that they couldn’t fight, Left us lamenting all the wrongs that they couldn’t right, This is for the second time, we’ve been here before, From Vietnam to Saddam, we always needing a war, Neo-conservatives rose up like Viet Cong, Their fingers on the trigger we won’t be here for long, They killed MLK and they named a day after him, They killed JFK and named an airport after him, Some guy shot a monster called Reagan so he could bone, A girl named Jodie Foster, if only he’d known, We tested nukes in the atmosphere, the sea and the dirt, And they tested all these missiles just to see if they worked, Now France got ‘em, Russia got ‘em, India and Pakistan, Korea want ‘em, States want ‘em pointed at the Taliban, Iran and Afghanistan, sands of the Arab lands, Orders from portable commands in armored caravans, Internet, 3g cellular phones, Serial killers built mini-cells in their homes, And we had Manson, Bundy, Gacy, Son of Sam, Macarena, superman, chicken dance, running man, Generation X and Generation Y, And the generation next will degenerate and die, Cos we got holes in the Ozone that we put there ourselves, Now the poles are a no-go, earths cooking itself, And we can’t look at ourselves so we got saline, botox, Eighteen, fake tits, nineteen detox, Don’t stop, get it, get it, can’t afford it get it credit, Buy it, spend it, try it, getting fat? Then you better shed it, Ab-Swing, Blue Blocker, Tupac or Biggie, East coast, west coast, Fat Joe or Fifty, Thatcher the shifty iron lady, Tony Blair, A princess died, some say cos she got Dodi there, Whitlam, Keating, Hawke and a promise, Of no children in poverty, wish that could have been honest, We had Abbot and Costello, right wing overlords, Promises and children, they threw ‘em both overboard,

Overwrought refugees thrown to a group home, Or jailed for the crime of looking for a new home, Elvis died, Hendrix died, Lennon died, genocide, In Africa, Serbia, Cambodia, pesticides, Bio-toxins, chemical warfare, All’s fair in love and war, more work for the pallbearer, More terror, more unjust search and seizures, A tidal wave came and claimed the coast of Indonesia, Quakes in Iran, Japan and California, Greenhouse gas turned the world into a sauna, The trauma of mortars, martyrs, slaughters, Of partners, mourners, fathers and daughters, They chased us, caught us, numbered us to sort us, Raped us, scorned us, to break us they bought us, Third world kidneys for captains of industry, Uprising in the street, corruption in the ministry, A blowjob brought about the fall of a dynasty, And MP3’s saw the fall of an industry, Doubled population, halved accommodation, Carved up resources and we starved the poorer nations, Beirut, Chechnya, all hell, Broke loose, Berlin, nineteen eighty nine man, the wall fell, Cold war ended but that didn’t stop more shells, Waco lit up the sky like burning oil wells, A world laid waste with addiction, Tell Orwell truth’s always stranger than fiction, Big Brother’s on closed circuit TV and on cable, Reality’s now scripted, celebrity’s for sale, Jeopardy and jail, seized, deposed, Remedies and penalties for failed CEO’s.

We had the Enron collapse, and white-collar crime, Investors they were taxed, a dollar for a dime, The blue chip companies and blue-sky mines, We no longer choose sides we choose sidelines, Rich bleeding the kind, blind leading the blind, And history repeats, no competing with time, Gasses eating the minds of the vets that they bring home, The plague of Agent Orange, Gulf War Syndrome, Soldiers sent home, posttraumatic stress leave, STD’s cos the sleeve ain't sexy, AIDS shook the eighties, grim reaper with a bowling ball, Metallica, kill ‘em, let god scold ‘em all, The Guildford Four, Chicago Seven, Mumia, Mandela, Oceans Eleven, Half past twelve on Friday the Thirteenth, Dawn of the Dead a Nightmare On Elm Street, Weapons free environment, war zone, phone home, Melanoma grow as we soak in the ozone, Home-grown, Hydro, Cocaine, Nitro, Werewolf in London, American Psycho, Cyclones, bushfires, Bush firing Scuds, Baby boomers, Woodstock, what happened to the love? What happened to the cubs? They fed ‘em to the wolves, Set a trial for pedophiles, they let ‘em in the schools, Set ‘em on the students, turned ‘em on the kids, And everyone responsible should burn for what they did, And if they try to deny then an eye for an eye, The government and church on which we try to rely, Both rob us till it hurts chasing lie after lie, Like astronauts chasing a pie in the sky, They landed on the moon but can’t seem to return there, Makes some question if they ever really were there, And if they were there now and they looked back, Could we look them in the eye, could we look back?

Cos when we look back at what we have done, Can you believe what we have become? As we walk into the sun, Can you believe what we have become? As we walk into the sun

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I'm just a normal man I wouldn't hurt nothing at all But here we are

Our leaders have a plan I'd only kill if it's for them Now here we are

I drove in a car Flew in a plane To come to your house And kick your door in Now it's down to this It's just you and me I'll blow your fucking head off For my country I go to church and tithe Go to work in a suit and tie But this is war

I'm really not sure why But the TV says that you were wrong Now here we are

I drove in a car Flew in a plane To come to your house And kick your door in Now it's down to this It's just you and me I'll blow your fucking head off For my country

My feet hurt from the sand But still I march on gun in hand 'Cause this is war

This isn't what I planned I wanted to be so much more But this is war

I drove in a car Flew in a plane To come to your house And kick your door in Now it's down to this It's just you and me I'll blow your fucking head off For my country

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