bolshevikLovelace
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hmmm yeah okay, i totally get that too 
i feel like animation would deal with all these issues pretty well, especially the time skips. i've got Pantheon in mind as inspo and its characters grew and changed quite believably. also, i think "trans and gay forcefem basement story" might already be targeting a pretty niche audience to worry about it being less of a hit
whatever the medium, i'm praying that i can watch this tv show in my lifetime
there's a smallish tear that can probably be sewn back together but i'll need to replace the zipper first
i just tripped over and broke my favourite skirt 
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tall girl struggles 
it's kinda funny when you hold the women's bathroom door open and someone walks under your arm though
i know that Girl, so confusing isn't literally about it being confusing to be a girl but also, i listened to brat right as i realised i was one. so of course whenever i hear that song, all i can think of is my little eggy self belting her heart out to that shit
i just finished reading Secrets of Dorley Hall before realising that there's a shit tonne more chapters on ao3 
muh thoughts on the first two Dorley books (spoilers)
fyi i'm a terrible reader, Nevada was the first book i've read in years and even then i only listened to the audiobook. for Dorley though, i've been borrowing my partner's eReader and the writing has kept me hooked the entire time. i've certainly tried to read other novels previously - i think the last one i managed was The Hobbit back in HS - but i care so much for this story that it's been keeping me up until 3am every single night 
i don't have much to write about book 1 but it was incredibly captivating. i'm a bit embarrassed for initially shipping Steph and Chrstine but Paige hadn't been introduced yet and they were literally the first two characters we see kiss (i got ahead of myself).
the moment where the whole lie comes undone at the end of book 1 is incredibly cathartic. these girls are fucking terrible liars and, since Bea isn't a total bitch, there aren't any serious consequences to the whole endeavour. Christine doesn't have to lie to Paige, Pippa and Steph can be the sisters they both need, everyone at Dorley can feel a little bit better about force-femming boys since they now have their "first walk-in!" Steph's now able to be open about her struggles to the older Dorley girls and given her own room where she can experiment with make-up, clothes, and voice training ahead of schedule. this allows her to finally admit to herself that yes, she is indeed a girl. and that no, she does not need someone else's permission to claim that.
a lot goes down in the second book, my favourite being Steph and Aaron's budding romance. Melissa's backstory was tragic as fuck and deserves all those CWs included at the beginning. it's heartbreaking to know that hers is the story of so many struggling trans kids (minus being wisped away and offered free estrogen) and by the end i was just left so fucking angry at the bullshit medical system that could have done literally anything to help her. oh and that ending was unbelievable, i have no idea where all that's going to go but i'm very excited to find out.
overall - i'm so fucking dorleypilled lmao. i wish could live in a house full of dysfunctional but caring trans(-adjacent)fems, mentors(/kidnappers), and ironic mugs that make guests uncomfortable. there's a lot personal shit this brought out but i'll save that for another another time, i mainly just wanted to say that i love this story so goddamn much...
this was one of my favourite bits:
One night, a woman had a dream. She dreamed she was walking along the beach with her auntie. Across the sky flashed scenes from the last several months of her life, and for each scene, she noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonged to her, and the other to her auntie.
When the last scene flashed before her, she looked back at the footprints in the sand, and noticed that many times along the path of her life there was only one set of footprints. In the lowest and most difficult parts of her life, it seemed, she walked alone.
“Auntie,” she said, “you said that once I came to you, you’d walk with me all the way. But when I look back at my life, I see that you left me to face my greatest hardships alone.”
“My precious child,” her auntie replied, “I love you and would never leave you. When you see but one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.”
“Thank you, auntie,” the woman said, looking back again and deriving great comfort from the view, until she saw something in the distance, just before the longest stretch of solo footprints. Puzzled, she asked, “Auntie? What are those little lumps in the sand back there?”
“Oh,” her auntie replied, “those are your balls. Sorry about that.”
earlier this week i was excluded from a meeting where our dev team needed to explain a feature that i built to another team 
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yes!!! i was like "thank fuck, finally Steph - took you long enough," the last couple lines in that chapter* had me sobbing happy tears though. i'm a couple chapters after that and it's so sweet watching her blossom, open up, and gain so much more confidence!
i'm also kicking my feet squealing whenever i read Aaron's POV, he's so obviously crushing on Steph but has so much internal shit to get over first
*here:
i'm honestly surprised by how much Dorley has been affecting me but i think i'll make a post about all my feelings once i'm finished the 2nd book