I wonder if there is a lesson here...
For legal reasons this is a joke.
It can take a long time to realize this.
I've been on HRT for about 2.5 years now, and I was looking through my old photos both before and after transition.
I was shocked that I thought I was an ugly duckling phase I looked so much more happy and vibrant than my pre transition photos, and how little the things I hyperfocused on mattered. And indeed it turns out I look better when I care about how I look and I'm comfortable in my skin.
Seems obvious now but it's really easy to get down on one's self.
I remember in KOTOR 2 your character has a dialog option that calls out the banality of the evil choices. I forget the exact words, but basically your character laments the opportunities they are provided beyond basic cruelties.
Found it cuz it was bothering me:
"These small acts of cruelty bore me - to take money from others, to insult them, to threaten their lives. " "I command the Force, and yet these small cruelties are all life presents me with. "
THPS 3 should have reverts, it was the first with them I thought