apply with chosen name
This is complicated at the moment. My boss recently found my resume on indeed. If he had found one with my chosen name, it would have been awful.
Is this because you think you won't be able to convincingly do it anymore or because you are wanting to stop?
A little of column A, a little of column B.
I'm also talking about a day that is still months or a year away. I guess I just never gave much thought to the fact that one day "dead name" will be dead.
applying with chosen name
This isn't an option at the moment. It's bad enough that my boss found my resume on indeed. If he had found one with my chosen name it would have been so much worse. Some day though.
Journaling, Navel Gazing
So I'm several hours away this week for work training. This is the same place I was at when my egg cracked back in January. It's really weird being back here since so much has changed. 6 months of HRT and a lot of therapy will do that I suppose. I spent a lot of time last night ruminating about the year so far, and the things to come. So I might as well journal my thoughts.
I can't believe the progress I've made. I have accomplished so much in my life this year so far. I've neglected so much for that last few decades and it feels good to get things done. On top of getting my life together, I also look so different and it's amazing. I have no idea how the cissies around me haven't noticed anything. Or maybe they have and just haven't said anything about it. I do worry about how much longer I can effectively boymode.
On the topic of boymoding, it really hit me last week that one day soon I'll boymode for the last time. That day is approaching and I'm sure I'm not ready for it yet. I barely go out in public in girlmode, though I am getting braver. I really need a new job before I can do anything major, since being outed at work would probably get me fired. Most of my coworkers, all of my management, and a lot of my customers are violently transphobic.
I've been applying for jobs like crazy. But I'm kinda on the fence about how to present for job interviews. I don't know if I should include pronouns in the resume, deadname and chosen name, or just use my chosen name. I am currently applying with just my dead name, and that's probably the easiest for the short term.
Outside of all of that, I want to start streaming regularly. I need to set a schedule and stick to it. I think that streaming will help me work on my voice, as well as help me with my general anxiety. I'm surprised at how anxious I get when I stream, or hang out on vrchat, but it is getting better.
Anyway, just want to end by saying I love all of you. 
Double caution over crest 1 right bad camber, love!
I decided to finally mod in a female codriver into my favorite rally game. It's so much nicer than the robotic British dude shouting at me.
Dark chocolate. Even if its probably full of heavy metals, I'll still eat that garbage.
Genesis is such a good intro track too. Sets the tone for the whole album.
Tumble out of bed and I stumble to the kitchen Pour myself a cup of ambition And yawn and stretch and try to come to life Jump in the shower and the blood starts pumpin' Out on the street, the traffic starts jumpin' With folks like me on the job from nine to five
Workin' nine to five, what a way to make a livin' Barely gettin' by, it's all takin' and no givin' They just use your mind and they never give you credit It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it Nine to five, for service and devotion You would think that I would deserve a fair promotion Want to move ahead but the boss won't seem to let me I swear sometimes that man is out to get me Mmmm
They let you dream just to watch 'em shatter You're just a step on the bossman's ladder But you've got dreams he'll never take away In the same boat with a lot of your friends Waitin' for the day your ship'll come in And the tide's gonna turn an' it's all gonna roll your way
Working nine to five, what a way to make a livin' Barely gettin' by, it's all takin' and no givin' They just use your mind and you never get the credit It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it Nine to five, yeah, they got you where they want you There's a better life and you think about it don't you It's a rich man's game no matter what they call it And you spend your life puttin' money in his wallet Nine to five, what a way to make a livin' Barely gettin' by, it's all takin' and no givin' They just use your mind and they never give you credit It's enough to drive you crazy if you let it Nine to five, yeah, they got you where they want you There's a better life and you think about it don't you It's a rich man's game no matter what they call it And you spend your life puttin' money in his wallet
Oooo this is good. I've never listened to them so I'm definitely going to be checking this out fully when I get a chance. Thanks for sharing!
Yeah same. All my life people have said I look like my mom. All it took was 6 months of hrt to prove them right.
The cissies in my life are absolutely clueless. I can not imagine what they think when they see me. They must think this is just what I look like with long hair and a shaved face. But when I catch a reflection of myself, all I see is my mom.
Yeah they are hiring for a different location and I got recommended to the other location as a potential hire. It wasn't a case of stalking.
Their response was to ask me if everything was ok and made me pinky promise I wasn't looking for jobs.