Good, fuck that place. Dont know if Ive ever seen such a concentration of smug ineffectual libs before. They went to one protest that was really a parade and they declared mission accomplished.
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Im fairly lost on all the federating and defederating stuff. Is there any way to use my hexbear account to post on lemmyworld or do I need a fresh account there?
CW: depression, S ideation
Hey, I don't know if this is the right place to post this so I apologize but I really need some people to talk to right now regarding how hopeless my depression has gotten due to a mix of both the mental illness aspects and also various physical ailments like degenerative disk disease, dental health, etc.
I'm having a lot of trouble trying to imagine a future where i can solve these issues to a point where I don't have pure anhedonia and pain every single day (for 13 years now)
Another huge block to getting further help is this all came about after a doc prescribed me paxil for an off label reason (IBS) in early 2010s. Led to a huge depersonalization episode that honestly never really ended and I now have PTSD or cptsd from the event.
It has caused a now paralyzing fear of even trying any kind of medication I haven't had before (despite me knowing that's what I need) because if anything even close to that happened again I'm done.
On top of all that doctor/dental visits are a nightmare I avoid to the point of it harming my health due to also having a severe vasovagal syncope reaction that no matter how severe I tell the doctors it is they still end up with looks of horror when my BP drops and I pass out. Then they charge me $500 to get an EKG to make sure it's fine despite knowing I'm going to pass out every single time.
Idk what I'm asking or how anyone could help but if anyone with huge medical anxieties, or servere reactions to antidepressant medications that gave them crippling fear and you found a way to overcome it, id love to hear any kind of advice or help.
I've tried therapy a couple times but usually end up feeling ignored and dismissed and the complete lack of energy to even get up, let alone drive half an hour to a psych, usually ends with me cold stopping after 4-6 months. And so far none of the grounding, CBT, eye movement stuff has had any impact on helping me get over the block of taking medications which then futhers my hopelessness.
Also I should mention due to the severity of the depersonalization I tried getting help with short term benzos at the time but no doctor was willing to help so it led me to the RC scene and ive been chemically addicted to RC benzos for 8-9 years now. Haven't used them in a dose to get high or blackout or anything in like 8 years but the daily dose to take just enough anxiety off to make it through a day has created a long-term addiction that no doubt messes with my attempts at therapy since it's hard to assess your feelings when they're dulled by benzos.
Also if anyone knows of good resources or places to talk/learn about any of this that'd be cool too. Or if I should make this a post instead of a comment etc.
I prefer not to deal with the suicide helpline due to my (knowingly) irrational fear of someone making the call to get me committed and because I'd prefer to talk this out with others who have suffered from similar situations and are also able to understand the added problems of how the political landscape adds to it so I guess that's why I choose here of all places to finally ask for help.
anyone that knows of STARWHAL is ok in my books.
its ok, he balanced it out with Musks biography lol.
His goodreads does not have me very optimistic that hes a comrade lol.
Give me a blunt rotation with Hasan, Cusack, and Greta.
apparently blacks, latinos, muslims, lefists, non voters, and trans.
As terrible as AHS can be Ill always love that it gave us a plotline where where someones wife tried to kill her because she voted for Jill Stein and Trump won.
they didnt even know to vote for biden in 2020 till after everyone dropped out and the msn just repeated Biden until it was the only name they were familiar with at the ballot.
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One of the most common talking points I saw there, said with the utmost authoritative confidence, was that violent revolution never succeeds and only peaceful protests have historically.