SunsetFruitbat

getting knocked out, the surgeon didn't give much of a choice since it's gonna be all 4 wisdom teeth and a few of them are impacted

while im posting here but I been learning about Paul Robeson and he is pretty cool

also does anyone else get like, "I work in an antarctic outpost" winter/fall kind of vibes? or like "I work somewhere remotely desolate and its frigid but its cozy and cool and the work important" vibes? I dunno if that makes any sense

wisdom teeth removal in an hour, lets go! I'm trying to be positive about it, but so far today not starting off great. since like I only got 3 hours of sleep on top of like only getting 5 hours yesterday, and my dad did something this morning that kind of upsetting me. but hopefully today gets better

also maybe something funny, but my brain keeps going "are you sure you secretly didn't eat or drink water somehow? perhaps while sleeping!?! huh!?! did you!?" I just don't really want to like mess this up by somehow eating or drinking something when I'm not suppose to.

I just had the strangest experience. My dad decided to take me out to eat because wisdom teeth surgery tomorrow. anyways we went to some restaurant and there were some really fancy, very clean, and expensive looking cars out front. which was weird. and when we got inside and were seated, there was just this group of like really out of looking place people. I think two of them might of been some small time white bourgeoisie assholes? they also acted like they own the place because they were going up to the window and shutting the curtains, going up to other people table and telling them to twist the blinds shut.

I dunno it was just fucking weird especially because this wasn't some fancy rich restaurant me and my dad went to. Also they were loud as fuck. They talked about doing something with tata chemicals???? and like just what the fuck. It was just so out of place.

also just a little awkward because like ya know. anyways that was just an odd experience

Me earlier. "Oh I'm gonna go read this article so I can finally read it and also clear up my tabs!"

Me now or meow. "now I have even more things to read and even more tabs"

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time flies, fuck how is it already monday. my wisdom teeth extraction is tomorrow. and now im suddenly getting anxious despite being okay with it for the last month. not sure why im getting anxious, I'm not gonna be awake for it.

anyways today is prep day. so I probably should prepare some meals later on. assuming if later on today doesn't turn out to be bad like sunday. also I'm feeling a lot better from whatever I caught since I don't really feel sick anymore. so I don't need to reschedule I hope. I don't want to wait another month.

I should also probably go to bed "early" so I'm not sleep deprived when the next day comes. also im really trying not to imagine the worst, as in imagining fighting with my dad. like for example, imagining my dad doing something like not picking up the pain meds after and then getting mad. like nothing has even happen and I'd doubt he would do that. I dunno it's kind of annoying my mind immediately jumps to like things like that.

anyways moderately positive mindset time, kind of. im not really sure how anyone can be positive 100% throughout the day since even when trying to be positive I'm still like negative so I dunno.