Leilys

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[–] Leilys 8 points 2 months ago

I'm on desvenlafaxine, an antidepressant. It helps with the ADHD "walk through a doorway and wtf was I wanting to do again" problems I have. I'm also a generally functional person with ADHD. Graduated with a degree and all but just rather spacey and forgetful.

Also turns out I've been massively depressed for years so that also cleared up. I haven't taken Vyvanse, but back when I was taking just Ritalin I'd still get intense negative moods and was generally snappier. If taken as needed now it's not so bad.

Overall: 10/10, husband recommends.

(He pledged that he'll fund my medications if I ever had trouble buying them since I've done a lot better since going on them. Happy wife, happy life and all)

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submitted 9 months ago* (last edited 9 months ago) by Leilys to c/piracy
 

With any luck...maybe they'll carry over to simplex. They weren't as free and open as liberashop, but they were still something. Not sure if there are any other alternatives at the moment.

[–] Leilys 1 points 11 months ago

I've found to do lists to be quite effective. Just jotting down tasks I need to get to help keep them present even if we won't be doing it immediately. I also like to give a priority number starting from 1 to more urgent tasks, so I know where to start.

I'm also adult diagnosed ADHD. With non stimulant medication my short term memory has improved noticeably (so less walking through a doorway and immediately forgetting why you're here).

I have used 3 different tools more often so far for task tracking:

  1. Trello - good for making tasks into cards, and also creating a dashboard to links you need to regularly access. I have categories like pending and currently active so I know where my tasks are at.

  2. Excel - surprisingly great for this, you can see all your remarks and notes on each task at a glance. I use it kind of like a ticket system where I close and hide the rows of tasks that I've completed. Being able to see notes on tasks at a glance is also a plus.

  3. Pen and paper - when all else fails, pen(cil) and paper are really great for scribbling down tasks too. I usually fall back to this when I start neglecting my digital notes.

My rule of thumb is to make things as easy to do as possible. Pack your bags the night before so you can grab your stuff and run out the next morning. Have your pen and pencil in easy reach so noting stuff down is as easy as possible.

When tasks seem complicated with too many steps, breaking them down into individual items helps make it feel less impossible/daunting. I still deal with task paralysis from time to time, but this gives me the nest possible chance that I'll get things done sooner than later.

Additionally, I've read about accountability buddies. I don't practice this often myself, but it does help to discuss and mention to a trusted or friendly colleague what tasks you're working on. They can help you keep some accountability to your work by asking you about it later in the day.

[–] Leilys 4 points 1 year ago* (last edited 1 year ago)

I got my Sofle V2 in 2022 as a job change present for myself. I've since changed jobs again, but the Sofle V2 continues to be the keyboard I bring into office.

For a long time I was just bringing it into work in the box it came in, but during the job change period, I bought some fabric, an Apple TV (gen 2) travel case and replaced the moulded foam with a fabric base. Had to do a fair bit of sewing but the result has been pretty great.

It gets a lot of curious comments in the office, and I've gotten fairly proficient at Colemak DHm. I'm planning on upgrading the microcontrollers so I can enable tapdance soonish.

[–] Leilys 1 points 1 year ago

Yeah, a lot of that. If you gave me 5 tasks in a row I'd remember maybe the last 2 and wouldnt even remember there were more tasks. Now my memory is noticeably a lot better. I usually remember what I came back to my room to grab now. It's very different from what I dealt with before...

Of course I do recommend writing down work tasks and stuff when you can - it helps supplement and cover for the bits you still end up forgetting.

[–] Leilys 2 points 1 year ago (2 children)

Like mentioned by others, the emotional regulation is a good result from your current medication. Is your psych recommending you switch to another medication?

I'm on antidepressants for my ADHD so the experience is likely slightly different, but being on ritalin solely at the beginning occasionally sent me into a focused spiral into very unhappy feelings that seemed even more consuming than usual. Then I switched to generic wellbutrin, which wasn't for long but gave me insomnia.

Currently on Pristiq now and I and my partner have noted significant improvements in my short term memory and emotional regulation. Maybe your psych thinks there's something that can address more than one symptom? Hope it works out for you.

[–] Leilys 1 points 1 year ago (5 children)

Been pretty rainy in KL lately

[–] Leilys 2 points 1 year ago

Unfortunately, after several discord purges, they seem to be gone now...

But, if you search up liberashop, you'll at least be able to add it to tinfoil and get access to downloads again. It's really sad what's happened to Teknik and other preservationists on the switch scene.

[–] Leilys 1 points 1 year ago

"Just do it"

Well, I'm trying, but my brain decided I should spend the next 3 hours doomscrolling while I mentally kick myself for not doing the thing already.

I think with adulthood there's been more things I can "just do", but the smaller things usually get procrastinated to hell and back for no reason besides "my brain didn't want to do it".

Same with potential, whatever greatness I was promised by everyone who said that hasn't happened yet.

[–] Leilys 3 points 1 year ago (1 children)

I appreciate it. I have inattentive type ADHD (also, I think ADD is now nested under the ADHD umbrella), based on what I've experienced so far.

I'm not sure where I fall on the severity scale, to be honest. On one hand, I made it out of education with a 2nd upper class degree in humanities.

On the other, I can't drive long distances (1h+) unsupervised and unmedicated because there's a significant risk that I'll just shut down in the driver's seat and crash my car, even if I'm smacking my face and trying everything to maintain wakefulness. I can't help it, and thankfully so far it's only happened when I've been able to pull over and swap drivers or rest.

[–] Leilys 3 points 1 year ago

I'll take that, brother.

[–] Leilys 3 points 1 year ago (1 children)

I'm sort of on my last legs at this current job due to an accumulation of mistakes that could be attributed to ADHD behaviour. I hate using it as an excuse, but it colors so much of my behaviour. I don't ever mean to make mistakes, and so much of them at that...

I have disclosed up my diagnosis to my boss to really try and improve my performance and work within my actual ability, and wrote my boss an email asking for accommodations. The follow up call was basically "You need to focus to do your job here" and "I understand you have been diagnosed, but this should not hinder your ability to do your job".

I've been asked to submit my request for accommodations in writing, so it's not like they're completely against it. But I don't trust that they actually understand the impact ADHD has always had on my ability to perform consistently at work and will be understanding of any missteps, even though I am trying to actively prove that I'm trying with medication and coping mechanisms.

I do have upsides. I work very well in crisis and urgent situations, though the sustained elevated stress leaves much to be desired.

[–] Leilys 3 points 1 year ago

Unfortunately, I'm not in the US and there are exactly 0 protections against ADHD, so me getting canned for underperformance, even if it's associated to ADHD is fully legal. But I still appreciate your input here.

 

Does anyone else feel a degree of imposter syndrome with work, like it's only matter of time until you can't work around your ADHD enough to avoid problems and everything falls apart?

I'm currently provisionally diagnosed with ADHD, pending further testing. I managed to get a degree and was working for a few years when someone recommended I get tested where I proceeded to finally pass this one test with flying colors...

My experience with work is that in the beginning, my attitude and enthusiasm to learn tends to give my bosses the impression that I have so much potential.

Then, cue the slow car crash that is me failing to meet that potential, then the cracks starting to show due to disorganisstion or task paralysis in my work, eventually putting me in a position where my competency is questioned and I'm falling behind on work because I'm struggling to meet (imo) great expectations that might seem realistic to neurotypical people, but is a struggle for me.

Then I jump ship to a new job, and the cycle restarts.

I thought I had a handle on my latest job. Stayed for just over a year. I thought this was it, I wasn't an imposter, I was finally fitting in. Then cracks, and everything fell apart and I'm now at risk of losing my job again. I tried my best, and I just feel disappointed in myself, like even I can't trust myself to do things right even at max effort.

This sucks.

 

Once upon a time, we could unlock all cosmetic items just by playing the game we paid for.

When cosmetic DLCs came around, framed as a way to support the developers it was still somewhat accepted. If you wanted to look pretty, pay a little more. Fine.

But what's up with all these seasonal passes and whatnot? So, you're saying I can pay a game for the privilege of working to earn these cosmetics. And there's a seasonal rotation, so I can still stand to miss out if I don't play enough in the given time frame?

That's a bad deal if I've seen one.

I know it's been around for a long time, but it's a crappy business proposition. It's a sad state that we can't just pay for a completed game and avoid any microtransaction bs in game while playing.

 

I take Ritalin 10mg on a needs basis since I generally have functioned 'alright' into adulthood.

Just took one to get some work done today and it still amazes me how normal I feel about doing work once I'm medicated. Like there's no massive hurdle to even starting. No massive reluctance and task paralysis to fight.

Coming from a whole week where I've been procrastinating on whatever isn't urgent, suddenly it's so easy to just... do.

I also get incredibly chatty (hence the post, lol), but yeah. I can't imagine how life changing it must be for people who struggle even worse with executive dysfunction.

 

So, I had a really weird train of thought.

In the Ten Commandments, it says to honor your father and mother.

In too many societies, it means that (not all, but still too many) parents feel an entitlement that they can treat their children and grandchildren like crap and still be honoured and served because they gave them life and are their parents/elders.

So, this means parents don't necessarily respect their children, and the children who aren't respected would continue the cycle, respecting their kids less than they were respected, because they're now the parents.

And so on and so forth, which could possibly tie into how the rate of mental health issues are growing (generalising the increased awareness mental health has now).

I understand that this can be easily debunked, and there's more nuance to all of this. But for people who come from "traditional families", I'm curious to hear what you think.

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