I'm actually on my own path and trying to figure out a means to sorta deal with how my thoughts have been turning dark over current politics, in a way. I have yet to read your full post, as I'm at work, but I'll circle back to it after work if I can.
I quite literally just had a 50min phonecall with a priest this afternoon to discuss attending an episcopal church. Which, turns out, is super chill with a lot of stuff and don't take things so literal in a lot of cases. In my case, the church I would attend is very affirming and accepting. Some episcopal churches might not be on an individual basis, but the stance of episcopal as a while, far as I have seen, is LGBT accepting.
It's an offshoot of Catholic, kinda born out of the church of England and Lutheran? I guess. How he explained it to me is that they sorta take the things that make sense and leave the rest. He even said he had no issues with piercings or tattoos, and I'd be welcome as a pierced, tatted trans woman.
As for the biblical sense, there's a passage I read recently, Galatians 3:28, that felt good enough for me as a tatted up, many pierced trans woman. It reads: Edit: I see you had used this in an argument. My bad. It still seems valid for my overall comment.
28: There is no Jew or Greek, there is no longer slave or free, there is no longer male or female; for all of you are one in Christ Jesus. 29: And if you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham's offspring, heirs according to the promise.
I dunno if I even believe in any of it, tbh, as I'm agnostic. But lately agnostic and figuring out my place in the world and internally hasn't been enough on my own and I've been furious at the world for being awful and furious at myself for being furious at the world. It's been a weird sort of place for me.
I dunno if this helps you any, but episcopal is gearing up to maybe be where I need to go to just figure some stuff out. At the very least, it's a church that has a lot of volunteering and that's important to me as someone who has a hard time leaving the house.
There's actually some studies starting up that are trying to confirm a theory on if the restless leg and other hyperactive movements are a means of self treatment for ADHD. Seems plausible to me, tbh.
They think lactic acid might play a role in the brain, and ADHD people are lacking as a symptom of ADHD. And since lactic acid can be produced in the muscles through exercise/movement, the theory is that by being hyper active, it creates the lactic acid which gets transported to the brain as a type of subconscious self treatment.
Kinda fascinating, tbh. Especially so, given that my body is currently twitching/bouncing from restless legs in my chair as I type this. Lol The best I've ever felt in my brain (and body) was when I used to heavily workout 6 days a week and was constantly sore from the lactic acid buildup. I think these kinds of studies are an interesting premise.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/30550949/