doomer

I live in America and shit is hitting the fan fast (at least it feels like it). I'm scared in the next few months life as I know it will just fall apart. I hate to sound selfish or like I don't care about others, but I'm in college, which took me 5 years because my mom pushed me into a major that was hard for me and I wasn't interested in, and I couldn't switch majors until I tried to fucking kill myself. Anyway, this is my last semester and I'm scared that I won't be able to graduate and truly be over with it (undegrad at least). Obviously people have it worse, and I acknowledge that, but when I've spent 5 years on something that I was told would be good for me, especially when I had the chance to only do four if I had complete control over my life, it just makes me feel like shit and not want to go on. I see pics of people in Gaza still making the most of their situation and it just makes me feel more like shit. Like they're in the midst of a war zone and I'm crying about higher education. I'm pathetic.

Sorry, I just had to ramble.