I finally got around to seeing "I Saw The TV Glow", and it definitely lived up to the hype.
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I had a pretty amazing dream last night. I was the captain of a space crew of 5 being sent to a distant planet for the first time.
For unspecified reasons (maybe engine failure, time dilation issue, being overtaken by faster ships) we arrived later than anticipated, and other Earth humans with around our level of tech or slightly higher had already got there, only to disappear centuries before us and leave an abandoned space station in orbit and a facility on the ground.
We explored the ground station in space suits we had for the planet but got trapped and were going to die, the whole facility was suspended/perched precariously on the rim of a crater over lava. The air was toxic.
Then we were rescued by even more advanced humans and I awoke in a community in a terraformed crater with breathable air, green grass, trees and white and glass buildings.
The humans spoke English to us but stilted, as if we were talking Latin now (they had a modern language too). They gave me this sick white uniform, very Napoleonic era naval inspired.
They were kind of in awe of of us as ancient Human explorers. They had really long names and when they found out my short name (even by today standards) they were amazed.
But they absolutely lost their shit (positively) when they found out I was a trans woman. These future people had the gender binary. In fact even more than us, because they had gene therapy that could allow them to "treat" all trans and intersex in youth. (they also seemed to have a class system but not money/surplus extraction). So I was kind of like a mythical figure.
These humans felt very Ursula K LeGuin, they weren't a perfectly benevolent or darkly evil society they were just different.
Rigid gender binary but no prohibitions on sexuality or initially obvious imbalance of rights.
No obvious money or exploitation but strict hierarchal societal jobs like artisan, scientist, scholar, ruler etc).
I'm putting this all down because I should write a novella about it.
Thank you, I realized this morning it's the first dream I had that I was a trans woman. I've had dreams where I was a woman but cis/trans wasn't an explicit detail. Feels like a positive omen.
Hell yeah, I've not dreamt in a while but the few times I've dreamt of gender it was such a powerful experience. I uh
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did dream I transitioned but like through magic and it felt like a warm shining light was inside of me. It did feel extremely peaceful radiant even. It's something I think about since it feels like I'm stuck being masc as hell. I do also remember the dream my mom had she told me that I transitioned so she got me a purple dress and cried with how beautiful I looked. This was years before I had that dream.On the real I don't know if it's in the cards for me or if I'll continue being gnc. I really don't feel there's a time limit on me to figuring it out at least but I'll be lying if I said I haven't been wondering sometimes...