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I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE I HATE IT HERE!
(www.e-flux.com)
I don't want to live in an empty box surrounded by strangers where I have to drive to do anything. I don't want to live like this. 
This isn't even a good article, but we all kinda know it. The suburb, the detached single family home, the kitchen, the laundry room, the garage, the car, they're all anti-culture weapons designed to destroy human beings and make consumers out of their bones.
Like ha ha ha I am detached and ironic but god it hurts so much having to live in this fucking anti-human nightmare society knowing that fascists turned the whole country in a labyrinth with the express purpose of creating exhausted, lonely, isolated, helpless people. It's a nightmare. It's a nightmare.
TBH, I had an absolutely fucking horrible time living in a dormitory-style arrangement when I was trying to pursue a trades education ~4 years ago, and I think it was a major part of what caused me to fail out of the program.
I can't deal with being around that many people all at once, all the time. I feel an extreme degree of social anxiety, and pressure to succeed in that kind of environment, and it's caused me to engage in some moderately concerning self-harming behavior in the past (e.g. ramming my head at full force into a concrete wall as a form of self-punishment, and running off campus into the woods during a severe snowstorm just to get away from it all).
Totes fair, it's definitely not for everyone.
What do I do about it tho?