yeah pretty much. sometimes i feel like the only thing standing in the way of a job that could serve as an entry point into IT/software engineering is me. but i’ve tried everything and have gotten nothing but radio silence and rejections. i developed personal projects, cleaned up my linkedin page, networked with others that happened to be in the field when i worked retail, revised and revamped my resume several times over. my standards were low to begin with, now they’re below the floor. nothing’s come of it. i don’t know what the secret sauce is. i really don’t know what else there is to do besides succumb to neetdom and chronic dependence. my stupid ass applied for a master’s program too, i guess i’m hoping that things are somehow better once i’m finished with that. or so that i can keep telling myself that i’m the one in control lmao.