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The original was posted on /r/cfs by /u/cosmiicsloth on 2024-08-06 14:41:11+00:00.
Hey everyone, I don't think I've ever posted here but I have been noticing that a lot of the things I experience really ring true with ME/CFS. I've even called myself "constantly tired" since I was about 16. I've had several blood tests taken but 99% of the time everything was alright (except when I had anemia once - I was barely functioning then).
I remember almost falling asleep during classes, extreme physical tiredness when I got home, not having friends due to having no energy to socialize. But I've always dismissed all of this as something everyone experiences - they must just push themselves, right? Or I've kept telling myself to eat better and exercise and it'll go away (it doesn't).
Then I found this sub among others, and holy shit, I can't even imagine having it as severe as many people here do. I feel like an impostor for even considering it. I recently started a new job as a housekeeper, so I'm doing physical labor 5 hours a day for 5 days a week. The thing is, I have no energy for anything apart from showering and eating afterwards, and my days off I feel like I'm fighting against the worst brain fog and just standing up and walking makes my head spin sometimes. My coworker, who's in her 30s (I'm in my early 20s) even told me "you're young, you should be full of energy"! I don't have energy for any of my interests or socializing, I just work, come home and become a vegetable. But to me it seems that ME/CFS actually prevents people from working overall, not to mention in a physical job. Is it possible that I'm overreacting and it's something else?
EDIT: This is all confounded by the fact that I'm neurodivergent and in some ways, this job is the nicest I've had so far, because I can't deal with hospitality and working with people. With prior jobs I was both mentally and physically exhausted, but with this job I can control my environment better and I'm only physically tired. If I'm lucky and don't have brain fog, I can read a book or something. Sometimes I think I could just be experiencing burnout, but the physical symptoms are still present almost always and worsen after physical activity no matter how well my day went in terms of overstimulation.