XPost3000
Finally someone else gets it, I basically have the same sort of relationship with femininity and gender
I'm non-binary gender fluid (and it sounds like you might be too) and honestly it can be really tough sometimes just having an overwhelmingly looming but mild and ignorable sense that something about you is off, but not really knowing what
And I've tried wearing girl clothes and going by she/her, but honestly it's so hit or miss, sometimes my dresses make me dysphoric and I hate it, I hate having no clue what I am sometimes
And I'm very much of the same opinion that I wish I could just fully turn into a girl temporarily just to see if I like it, just to try it, but I know I can't, and I really really cannot bring myself to do anything more permanent than wear a skirt or makeup, not even shave my legs. as much as I want to be a girl, I don't want to not still also be a boy, sometimes I'm happiest when I'm neither, and sometimes I love being both
Gender is very weird, I'm just glad I'm gonna finally stop hiding myself soon
I don't really have any advice that I could think of, but hopefully seeing someone else with the same feelings helps u not feel alone
Arch, btw
It was the distro that my friend uses all the time, and I've had to use his laptop on occasion so I'm somewhat familiar with the distro, enough so that I've installed it on persistent USBs before and already chosen it as my next OS after Windows (I would switch now, but I rode Windows 7 till the end date, so I figured I'd ride out 10 until the final day this October)
Also! Gender fluid hello!! It made me so insanely happy to see that flag in the Linux terminal, I feel so seen!! It feels like trans girls hog all the Linux spotlight this side of the fediverse, I'm happy for them! But I still don't feel like I have a proper community where I belong, especially since I stay off of all other mainstream social media >.<
So seeing another enby, another gender fluid especially, for the literal first time since I made my lemmy account just makes me so ecstatic!! We're so rare x3
Anyways, thank u for existing and simply posting this, seeing another makes me feel seen and I can't really express enough how unreasonably happy something so small just made me c:
Thank you! And I should sleep so good night also lol
Mauary birthdays where u at π£οΈπ£οΈπ£οΈ