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Any fellow grass touchers? Would love to here about your time. I got to eat so many wild raspberries, they were so delicate but so flavorful.

I am currently working through my first pass of Stalin's The Principles of Leninism

I have really enjoyed the book but have found it to be a kind of a harder read. I did just buy the cheapest version I could on the Kindle Store and I wondering if the translation is a little rough or if other people had this issue?

i feel like shit, i keep fucking it all up, yet somehow, someway i keep "making it"??? no matter what happens, everything returns to the regular, i'm suffering and going insane

i'd rather just be a regular failure not a notable failure

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Thank you so much-a for reading my post

This randomly popped into my head from my childhood, I searched for it online, and apparently it's not even that uncommon of a Christian take today.

Took over from where I left off so not a true thru-hike in a way, but most people do this trail in many small segments over years. I managed to hike another 370ish kilometres (including side trails and to pickup spots) in eleven days, not including two adjacent rest days in the middle. I got to the most northern, rugged, and beautiful sections of the trail in the last few days which was well worth the just over 900k I put in.

I was far more supported this time, being followed with a car, and only did one night packing everything in and out. Did the full thing vegan of course. I'm in a much better mood having gotten it done and am already planning more endurance adventures. Would love to get into trail running and try to take some shorter ones at speed!

Feel free to ask me any questions about how I pulled it off, thru hikes, or endurance camping stuff in general!

I know your average zionist doesn't speak for the religion but it feels like they've been working overtime to equate their political ideology and national project to their religion. It's a mental mindfuck that makes me question myself if I'M the one being an antisemite when I call out the IDF for butchering children or settlers for running pogroms on Palestinians. Fucking pissrael and it's hasbara propaganda has now moved public opinion so much that taking a stance against bombing hospitals is akin to being a bigot.

FUCK

Imperialism too? Left Wing Communism as well?? What is to be done???

That's it, I'm powering through these books.

its worse when you live in the deep south and there actually are a fuck ton of bugs every summer so you have plausible reason to assume they actually ARE landing

I have no choice but to abandon gummunibm and reassert myself as a Marxist-Leninist-Bidenist.

No but seriously, it seems like Russia sucks. Thoughts? Does this inform your perspective on Ukraine at all? Does this speak to the biases of the film maker? Are you like "fuck the Olympics anyway"? In essence: you seein this shit?

At least I think they are grackles, I googled it and the call sounds about what I hear from my yard. Wonder if climate change is causing this?

Instead of sending the intellectuals to the fields, we'll send the bourgeoisie to the cash register!

Please sign and share.

And email here: https://www.ciwf.org.uk/our-campaigns/ban-live-exports-internationally/

shit sucks. I've kicked H, oxys, a multiple hundred dollar a day cocaine habit, another H habit, the couple years I thought I could just grow poppies and drink tea instead, and kratom. But not oxymetazoline. My nostrils, they call for it. My sinuses, they yearn for it. FML.

First one was another cyclist, the other some dude who stopped his car when he saw me crouched next to my bike on the side of the road. The dude with the car offered to give me a ride home but my bike wouldn't fit in his car

Neither one could help me and in the end I had to walk the bike home, but both strangers' willingness to help made my night much less shitty

It seems there are technical problems, it won't let me access it.

Oh boy, so honestly I don't blame myself for relapsing under the circumstances I had, but I still put a lot at risk. I burnt the shit out of my throat on some food on Monday. Bad enough that I had to turn down some opiates at the hospital. I have literally been gagging on my own uvula for the whole week, unable to swallow anything but fluids, being in pain from breathing, the full 9.

Well, I tried to do the responsible thing and I bought some over the counter cough syrup. It's a shitty high at low doses, should be fine right? This was not the case. That little taste of cough medicine turned into multiple bottles of cough tablets in one night. If you've ever been on DXM or seen someone on DXM, you know that it's not an easy one to hide. The other people in sober living saw how bad I was doing and had no idea what I was on, so they were worried about having to narcan me. I was technically safe, but it was still unfair to put that stress on them, even if it was unintentional. But up until that point, I've been a really good roommate so everybody was really forgiving. I explained the situation to the house manager and as long as I can pass a drug test in a few days, and I probably should.

As far as other consequences for it goes, I gave myself bromide poisoning in one night of dosing on dextro. A very rare side effect of DXM that only comes with high doses, I have breakouts on my hairline that are literally leaking cough medicine. It's so swollen up there, it hurts to touch at all, but I finally have the energy to get it rinsed out tonight. But all my excretions reek like cough medicine, including the oily residue coming out of my head.

This was extra stupid as I'm on an SSRI, meaning I ignored my own advice on not mixing DXM with ssris because of serotonin syndrome risk. There was a chance that this relapse would have randomly sent me into a painful death and I would have been too fucked up to even call an ambulance if it happened. I was barely able to stand up, drooling and unresponsive to what was happening around me. I got lucky and didn't run into seratonin syndrome, but it was really fucking stupid. I'm lucky I still have a house and a life after this because this easily could have turned sour real quick.

I hate to say it, but I think to most people I probably look like a chud. Anyone who has known me for more than 4 seconds knows I'm not, but I'm afraid I still visibly give off that vibe. I'm a man, or think I'm probably nonbinary tbh, but I still present and appear fully masculine, close to 40, full beard and mostly just wear plain dark t-shirts with no logo and dark jeans. I do have shoulder-length long hair, but so have plenty of chuds I've been acquainted with. I don't have any sense of style and have never tried to learn or care about fashion, but no disrespect to those who do.

I probably shouldn't care, but I hate knowing that when I'm around people they probably think I'm a reddit gamer or worse. Should I try to change my appearance or should I just learn not to give shit? Does anyone else here worry about that?

I'm also going to be getting glasses in the next few days and have to decide on a frame. What should I get to try to minimize chud appearance? I have kind of a squarish face but maybe a bit rounder now as I get older. Do certain kinds of glasses scream redditor or chud? Any advice on what I should go for is welcome.

Edit- Thank you for the advice to everyone who commented I really appreciate it. I am afraid I might have given the wrong impression on some of it so to clarify, I'll just quote one of my responses

I do want to look unassuming. I'm pretty bad with social anxiety and most of the time I just want to go unnoticed. But I worry even that in going unnoticed I'll give off the wrong impression. Chud is an extreme I probably shouldn't have used because I don't think anyone would ever look at me and think gun totin' confederate flag waving chud or wannabe cop or some shit.

The worry is looking more like the aloof redditor, new athiest or even altright leaning brand of chud, or maybe I'm using the word chud wrong. As far as the nonbinary thing, that's a lot to get into, but just as far as dress style, I don't really want to look masculine OR feminine. I used to wear more feminine coded things when I was younger, but these days I feel like the plainer the better. I do have some leftist t-shirts, but I save those for certain occasions or when I'm going to be around certain people, or even trying to do leftist signaling without libs knowing with my All Cats are Beautiful shirt. Most of the time all I wear is a plain dark color with NO messaging at all not even a visible logo. I guess it's less that I want to indicate my politics and more that I don't want to announce the wrong politics when I'm just going about my day.

To be totally honest, I posted mostly because of the glasses I'll be getting and I don't want frames that make me look like Vaush.

"Huh, this article is surprisingly opinionated — not that I actually necessarily disagree with its analysis, not for the most part at least, it just strikes me as unusual for a news site to be this opinionated. Who are these people?"

"...So apparently this site started out as somebody's personal blog? And later became a 'proper' news site? That's neat, I guess, but I'm just getting some bad vibes here..."

"Oh, this site has a COVID-19 tag? Is this going to be like the only COVID-conscious news site in all of Norway? Let's see what these people have to say about COVID..."

[reads the newest COVID articles]

[it's all anti-mask, anti-vax conspiracy brained bullshit]

"...Welp, the article I translated has absolutely nothing to do with any of that nonsense, but I'm still just Not going to post to Hexbear an article from a site that's this reactionary about COVID. I don't want to give them publicity. I don't want these weirdos representing my beliefs about food sovereignty and militarism. I don't care how much effort I put into my translation, I'm just not going to share it."

This has been a lesson in being critical of your sources and being duly skeptical of things even if you already agree with them.

My landlady's pretty much estranged husband came to visit for a couple of days, I think they had legal stuff they needed to talk about. Yesterday they called up to me that they were going out. I heard them get in the car and leave. My landlady's little dog came upstairs to sit with me since he hates being alone.

Shortly after they left, I was watching TV when the dog started acting weird, suddenly sitting up and looking around, then rushed downstairs. I thought maybe he'd heard a cat in the garden or something. But he came back up and sat on the floor again and kept looking around like he could hear something. So I stopped the TV, and then I heard my landlady and her husband's voices coming from what sounded like the back garden. I looked out the window and the car was still gone though. I walked to the back of the house and could hear their voices clearly, I recognise them both, especially since the husband has a very strong accent and deep gravelly smoker voice. It was undeniably them although I couldn't make out exactly what they were saying.

I went downstairs to the back and into the garden. I could still hear them, still not make out what they were saying but they weren't there. The dog could very clearly hear it too and was looking for them and very confused that they weren't there. I gave up and went back upstairs. Some time later they arrived home and I asked if they'd popped back and been in the garden but they said no.

Toxic masculinity is a fuck, the standard of fearlessness and dominance that patriarchy demands you uphold is unattainable, accept and embrace your fear as part of yourself.

Noodlers ink btw.

Doing more writing by hand lately and was looking at some new ink. Now I've got to find other achivist ink cause I'm sure as hell not giving money to someone who dogwhistles about "western civilisation" and brands with that racist's flag from the usa.

Sigh. I just liked the green.

Feel like shit. It was banker phone scam. I havent told my parents yet but I will need to because I opened a loan under their influence and I havent a job yet so they will need to pay for it. Im devastated. But I gotta hunker down now and keep moving forward. Im so ashamed, i cant eat, I cant sleep.

Back on the wagon again, hit 24 hours earlier today. But besides not vaping I just can't believe the heat. I'm naked in my house and I've had the ac on since this morning and it's like once the sun hits around 2 pm the house just cooks, it's so bad.

UGH

And it makes sleeping so miserable too even with the fan on me.

Made the mistake of browsing Reddit at work and I see a thread where OP points out that the google overview lists Napoleon as “king of Italy.” Cue to all the comments calling OP an idiot because “technically he was!” So we’re gonna introduce Napoleon as “king of Italy” now without even mentioning France? Redditors love a technicality.

I have a job interview in about two hours. It's for a seasonal position with my apartment complex, to help with all the students moving in and out. I live in off-campus apartments built for students but can be rented by whomever, as long as you don't have kids, I think.

I desperately need a second job. I am obviously going to take this position if it is offered to me, and I don't see any reason it won't be.

The question comes from this: At the end of the season, in about two months, they offer some of the seasonal people full-time positions. Truth be told, regardless of the general opinions here, I will probably pursue that job pretty aggressively. It should pay better than my current grocery store job, and I believe there may be a discount on rent for full-timers.

In the event I'm offered the job and take it, I would be officially working for a sizeable corporate landlord. I obviously have serious ethical issues with this premise. That said, we do all have to exist within this capitalist hellscape they've created for us, so I don't think me making $16 an hour or something showing people apartments and leases and such really puts me in a position to be morally compromised. But it does put me uncomfortably close to it, in a way.

I don't know. I am not a theory or moral wiz kid like some of my wonderful comrades here. And as I said, this really is more for opinions than actionable advice. I am not in an economic position to be turning down just about anything on moral grounds. I'm not going to be a cop or sell crack (I'd much rather sell crack), but I also can't be high and mighty, turning down good jobs just because I don't like how they make their money. Chances are that will apply to any company I could work for. Hell, my current employer is Publix, a large grocery chain with anti-union and anti-competition practices, who - you guessed it! - also does real estate. I don't know if they do residential or just commercial, though. So I'm fucked no matter what xD

I guess this is just a place to discuss working for employers who you are ethically opposed to, your opinions on the matter, and how you cope.

Wish me luck! Interview is at 1:30pm EST, so in 1.5 hours. I'm pretty confident given this is a seasonal position. The only issue would be a drug test, but I'd only pop for weed and I just haven't been able to afford to get my card renewed (I'm up for the full process, not the re-cert). I'm sure I can navigate that at the time, should I need to.